farewell 2008!

many things had happened throughout this year which started from being a participant of national service, until becoming an L-licensed future driver. the most happiest moment of course during the middle of march 2008 since the spm result had came out, and i am grateful for having this such a great achievement for this result has gave me an opportunity as well to be recognized as JPA scholar! yeah, for sure i'm under SAM program which is taken for those who are going to go oversea, specifically to Australia! so far, my studies went not really well, but still on the right track. yet, facing difficulties besides having problems with studies(especially accounting:D) taught me well about this real unpredictable life. since we're just human kinds, some of us say "let's just go with the flow", meanwhile some of us think "don't give up just yet, there would be a reason for a situation". for me, i've lived with my friends especially taylorians for quite long time in this year and it reflects something which are valuable and memorable, known as precious friendship. in college life, friendship always comes first because we will face these fellows almost all the time, and it's important for us to get knowing each other, and making each other as comfortable as we could. i was acting immature in some events which happened in this year, and although i was hurting their feelings, they still will to confront and make ourselves to stick together as companions in this program. there's nothing much i can say to repay them, for they have been trying to give supports and courage. thanks you guys for being beside me in facing this short-termed college life. hopefully this upcoming new year would bring about more laughter and joyful moments for us to endure. 

FAREWELL 2008

warkah dari Iblis...

Insaflah wahai insan. Surat ini akan membuat anda benar-benar berfikir.

Sebenarnya surat ini hampir membuatku gila tatkala aku membacanya, tapi

aku harus sebarkan kerana catatan kecil dibawahnya.

SURAT DARI IBLIS UNTUK MU

Aku melihatmu kelmarin,saat engkau memulai aktiviti harianmu.

Kau bngn tanpa sujud mengerjakan subuhmu.Bahkan kemudian, kau juga tidak mengucapkan "Bismillah" sebelum memulai santapanmu,juga tidak sempat mengerjakan solat Isha sebelum berangkat ketempat tidurmu.

Kau benar2 orang yang bersyukur,Aku menyukainya.

Aku tak dapat mengungkapkan betapa senangnya aku melihatmu tidak merubah cara hidupmu.

Hai Bodoh,Kamu millikku.

Ingat,kau dan aku sudah bertahun-tahun bersama,dan aku masih belum bisa benar2 mencintaimu.

Malah aku masih membencimu,karena aku benci Allah.

Aku hanya menggunakanmu untuk membalas dendamku kepada Allah.

Dia sudah mencampakkan aku dari surga,dan aku akan tetap memanfaatkanmu sepanjang masa untuk mebalaskannya.

Kau lihat,ALLAH MENYAYANGIMU dan dia masih memiliki rencana-rencana untukmu dihari depan.

Tapi kau sudah menyerahkan hidupmu padaku,

dan aku akan membuat kehidupanmu seperti neraka.

Sehingga kita bisa bersama dua kali dan ini akan menyakiti hati ALLAH.

Aku benar-benar berterimakasih padamu,karena aku sudah menunjukkan kepada NYA siapa yang menjadi pengatur dalam hidupmu dalam masa2 yang kita jalani.

Kita nonton film 'porno' bersama,memaki orang,mencuri,berbohong,munafik,makan sekenyang-kenyangya,bergosip,manghakimi orang,menghujam orang dari belakang,tidak hormat pada orang tua,tidak menghargai Masjid,berperilaku buruk.

TENTUNYA kau tak ingin meninggalkan ini begitu saja.

Ayuhlah,Hai Bodoh,kita terbakar bersama,selamanya.

Aku masih memiliki rencana2 hangat untuk kita.

Ini hanya merupakan surat penghargaanku untuk mu.

Aku ingin mengucapkan 'THANKYOU' kerana sudah mengizinkanku memanfaatkan hampir semua masa hidupmu.

Kamu memang sangat mudah dibodohi,aku menTertawakanmu.

Saat kau tergoda berbuat dosa kamu menghadiahkan tawa.

Dosa sudah mulai mewarnai hidupmu.

Kamu sudah 20 tahun lebih tua,dan sekarang aku perlu darah muda.

Jadi,pergi dan lanjutkanlah mengajarkan orang-orang muda bagaimana berbuat dosa.

Yang perlu kau lakukan adalah merokok,mabuk-mabukan,berbohong,berjudi,bergosip,dan hiduplah seegois mungkin.

Lakukan semua ini didepan anak-anak dan mereka akan menirunya.

Begitulah anak-anak.

Baiklah,aku persilakan kau bergerak sekarang.

Aku akan kembali beberapa detik lagi untuk menggoda mu lagi.

Jika kau cukup cerdas,kau akan lari sembunyi,dan bertaubat atas dosa-dosamu.

Dan hidup untuk Allah dengan sisa umurmu yang tinggal sedikit.

Memperingati orang bukan tabiatku,tapi diusiamu sekarang dan tetap melakukan dosa,sepertinya memang agak aneh.

Jangan salah sangka,aku masih tetap membencimu.

Hanya saja kau harus menjadi orng tolol yang lebih baik dimata ALLAH.

Catatan:Jika kau benar2 menyayangiku,kau tak akan memberi surat ini dengan siapapun.

*kredit utk Fara

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu (bhg7)

isnin

29 disember 2008

ari nih, once again ak drive keta, n dis tyme on da real road. well, i mean, jln raye, bkn kat litar. then, everything went sm0othly although there's sumtime i was acting arr0gantly while driving. ceh, nk tunjuk bagus lak ak nih, nseb bek tak xcident. yet, this thurs, gonna learn h0w to park, but seriusly i'm not prepared 4 that f0r n0w! xpe2, let's just go with da fl0w, n we'll see h0w do i perf0rm...:D 

ahlan wasahlan Maal Hijrah...

dengan bermulanya tahun islam yang baru, diharapkan muslimin dan muslimat sekalian menanamkan azam yang baru dan bersedia menghadapi onak dan cabaran yang bakal mendatang pada tahun ini...

*marilah kita berusaha untuk menjadi khalifah dibumi Ilahi...

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu (bhg6)

ahad

28 disember 2008

ok, hari ni hari ke-2 aku drive keta, f0r sure utk dptkn lesen. tp, kali ni ak still drive as da fes tyme, ntah ape2! kdg2 terpk, nk aje pts ase, n bt xtau je psl amik lesen ni. xpe2, maybe blum cukup k0mpeten lg, so dat's y agak kelam kabut. i'll try next tyme, da final r0und for dis h0ls, which is gonna be t0morrow. wish me luck!:D

*h0pefully xkn terhenjut-henjut lg...:D

i miss debating...

this is 1 of the pictures taken after having a match with kisas team, wearing black blazer. 

yeah2, i really miss debating, for i had been participating and experiencing it for 3 and more years. 

this was during the hksbp at sakti. sad to say but we lost the match, yet it was competitive since there were 2 out of three juries thought we ain't performing better than kisas. however, we managed to move on to the quarter final, facing mtd. unfortunately, the luck wasn't ours. still, it was a fantastic achievement as it was the first time ever where my school was successfully entered the next round, after having matches in preliminary round.

it really was a great achievement since my school is just opened for 5 years! standing on a line with elite schools such as tkc and mckk was such a great moment.

telling a little bit about myself as a debater, i was the first speaker, or nicely pronounced as prime minister. but i was in malay category, so please don't expect to much perfection regarding on grammar and stuffs like that on this blog and of course i'm improving myself! 

whatever happens, i will never forget the memories of being a debater. hopefully, i will continue being a debater wherever i go.

maybe some of you are doubting on myself, for you guys usually see me sitting quietly, and lack of socializing with surrounding people. but trust me, you would never recognize me once i start saying,"terima kasih yang arif tuan yang dipertua...".=)   

clarification!

agaknye post ak sebelum ni byk timbulkan keraguan. yang pasti, sape yg bace btul2, dye akan faham...

*maafkan aku anep, diorg da slh anggap...:( 

ideologi dan realiti...

kehidupan tidak selalunya indah, namun yang indah itu tetap hidup dalam kenangan...

aku terfikir tentang falsafah ini semasa aku di tingkatan lima, hampir ke penghujung sesi persekolahan. walaupun sudah dicipta sebelumnya, tapi hakikatnya aku sendiri tidak mengetahui tentang kewujudan falsafah ini, sehingga aku berasa amat bangga pada waktu itu kerana menghasilkan falsafah yang sememangnya benar, dan tidak boleh disangkal...

hidup tidak selalunya indah. namun, semua orang tetap mengidamkan kehidupan yang bahagia. ya, aku akui aku sendiri sentiasa berharap agar dikurniakan kehidupan yang bahagia. namun, adakalanya aku terfikir, dan anda juga mungkin terfikir, bahawa jikalau kehidupan sentiasa indah, sudah semestinya tidak akan berlaku pergolakan dalam institusi rumah tangga hinggalah kekalutan politik antarabangsa. situasi kontemporari jelas membuktikan, bahawa kehidupan tidak selalunya indah, kerana masih ada lagi insan yang menderita, dan sengsara, sedangkan di ufuk dunia yang lain, sejumlah manusia bergelumang dengan kesenangan dan kebahagiaan. tidak pernah terdetik di minda insan-insan kerdil ini, bahawa mereka akan berhadapan dengan krisis sebegini rupa, namun hakikatnya kehidupan mereka yang tidak disangka-sangka telah memakan diri mereka. 

yang indah itu tetap hidup dalam kenangan. ya, aku juga akui kenyataan seterusnya kerana aku sendiri mempunyai sebahagian daripada kehidupan ini yang benar-benar menjadikan aku manusia yang paling bahagia didunia, dan aku yakin anda juga memiliki memori indah yang tiada tolok bandingnya. tidak kira lama atau tidak anda mengalami kenangan tersebut, ia tetap hidup kerana itulah sebahagian daripada kehidupan kita yang membahagiakan kita, dan mungkin yang terbaik pernah anda alami. 

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walaupun aku berkawan dengan dia selama 3 minggu, dalam masa itulah aku dapat merasakan persahabatan yang amat bermakna buatku. dalam masa tersebut, dia sudah sanggup berkongsi tangis dan tawa, dan sehingga satu tahap, pernah mengangkat telapak tangannya, semata-mata ingin mengesat air mataku yang mengalir kerana kesusahan yang aku hadapi. "semua orang same je, x de beza. aku x kisah seburuk mane pun kau, aku tetap akan berkawan dengan kau...". pernah seseorang mengucapkan ini kepada anda? jika tidak, aku memang orang yang bertuah. namun, semua yang hidup pasti akan mati, dan setiap yang bermula pasti akan berakhir. begitu jugalah dengan persahabatan kami. hakikatnya, aku telah bertemu dengan seorang kawan yang sangat baik, dan terus terang dia juga sudah banyak berkorban demi aku semasa PLKN. walaupun aku dilempar dengan tomahan dan ejekan, dia tetap berada disisi aku. terima kasih, terima kasih banyak-banyak atas segalanya...

*kredit to hanif...

i am who i am...

aku adalah aku.noktah.













aku adalah aku.noktah.

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg5)

isnin
22 disember 2008

c0ntinuing with 6-h0urs modul... but this time, i'm driving!!!
alah, 0f c0z cuak gle, gementar as well...yelah, fes time...=P

f0rtunately, everything went sm0othly even f0r da fes tyme...:D
ending this sessi0n, means that n0w i hv L already!...
huhuhu...

will be c0ntinued during next sem break, or 2-weeks h0ls...
g0nna learn h0w t0 drive "skillfully n pr0perly"*...:D

*c0z td kdg2 keta tuh terenjut-enjut(m i mistaken?)...:D

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg4)

khamis
18 disember 2008

hari ni, ak ade m0dul 6 jam, tige jam in da class, n tige jam on da r0ad...
xnk cite ape2 lg, c0z tak xcited...
sbb pe tak xcited?

c0z three h0urs on da r0ad, ak x wat ari nih...
yet, will be continued on da next monday...=(
huwa*...

*tangisan kerna blum dpt drive...

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg3)

11 disember 2008
khamis

ari ni, kali ke-2 ak amik test undg2 jln raye...
mmg hrp sgt la nk pas...
yerlah, spe nk terkandas lme2 n membazir rm27 setiap kali repeat?
s0, with determination n pray ak pun pegi lah driving centre tuh...

nk pjgkn cte...
as usual n b4 dis la, kne amik n0 n tunggu turn...
smpi2 da penuh, smpi ade yg kne tunggu kt luar lg...
ak pun, ikut same la...
syg skali, kat tangge je yg selesa sket nk duduk...
x kn nk duduk ats lantai?
sigh...

tunggu pnye tunggu, akhirnya smpi la ms utk ak 'beraksi'...
kali ni, dgn tekad ak nk wat btul2, n x nk kne repeat all da tyme...
wait2...
xkn nk trus tau result ak?=P

nk pjgkn cte lg...
adelah ak jmpe satu bdk nih, bkn bdk pun, tp dye call ak abg...=P
curi2 tgk ic dye kat sijil kehadiran bla bla...
owh, dye ni bru pas spm...

ak all da tyme kat tangge, n when he arrived, dye masuk dlm n amik n0, sme cam ak gaklah...
tp2, dye dtg kat tangge after dat, n sat beside me...
lme gaklah...
smpi satu m0ment tuh...

"bang, nnt cmne ek? nnt dye call ke ape?"...
dye ttibe je tnye ak...
wah3, perli nampak, taulah ko da nampak ak nye fes testnyer result, n igt ak nih ade 'byk' xperience c0z terkandas...
igt ak nih muke 'terkandas' jer ke?
xpe2, maybe dye sekadar bertanye...

"nnt ble dye panggil n0, pegilah kat kaunter."...
jawab ak...
tu fes dial0g ak dgn dye...
n after few h0urs later...

"bang, pam brek ni cmne?"
erk! ak mne tau! yg ak tau pam tyr jer...
adusss...
da ak xtau, ak ckp jelah xtau...
dye plak, siap cari dlm buku nota tuh lg...
ak pun, dr sebelah curi2 tgk ar...=P
mne bleh kedekut ilmu, ryte?
huhuhu...

ok, n0w da smpi turn ak...
ak pun msuk la dlu...
ak n0 56, bdk tuh n0 59...
tp, ble dye masuk bilik k0mputer tuh, ak pun da siap...
s0, ak trus hulur tgn nk berjabat...
"abg blik dlu ea..."
"ok2, time kasih ek..."
aik? ble ms ak tol0ng dye nih???

ak pun kuar nk amik printed result...
"haa...lulus pun..." kate abg yg incharge tempat tuh...
ceh, igt ak nih truk sgt ke...
mne ade!
45/50 isn't s0 bad...=P

yaay!!!*

*ske c0z next thurs da bleh bawak kete...=P

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg2)

hari isnin
1 disember 2008

perjalanan aku untuk mendapatkan lesen diteruskan...

ari ni(spt diatas) ak amik ujian undg2 yg pertama kalinye!
gugup tu ade, of c0z sbb blum biase lg...:P

tunggu pnye tunggu, at last bru turn aku wat da test...
tp, gne komputer(bagus teknologi, tp npe x gne omr je?:P)

gelabah2!
ak ni kategori ape?
org awam? penduduk tetap???
argh!!!
nseb bek ade pak p0lis...
tnye dye, then dye gtau la...
ala, kate fes tymer...:P

owh!!!
npe ssh sgt???
d**n it...
xpe2, bt je...
bak kate fierce qilah, hentam je...:P
ok2...

bt n bt, finally siap...
sigh, k0npem x pas...
cek2, ek eleh...
BETUL!!!

kurang asm!
if gne 0mr, mesti bleh wat...:P
xpe2, sabar n jgn pts asa...

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yg tu pg, ni tyme ptg...
yelah, da xpas, mesti nk repeat!
ok2, da b0ok ms, n0w just kne tunggu...

2 jam stgh ak tunggu...
xpe2, kali ni mesti pas, xksh lme or not kne tunggu...
jnji kasi beres sume skali ari ni gak!:P

dr pukul 12.30 tgh ari, n0w da 5pm...
ok2, da nk mle la ni...
hati x sabar!
eagerly ak tunggu...
n br0 yg incharge of da test dtg ke bilik menunggu...
ak rs gementar, tp ak xcited gle nk amik blik!

"s0rry, sistem k0mputer d0wn..."

d**n(99X)

inf0: ak repeat on next thurs(11 dec)...tgk brp lme ak dberi rht utk tenangkan dri???

gggrrr!!!...

a dedication to someone...THIS I PROMISE YOU...

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you
Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby

Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
I promise you

mIsH yA alL...

ok, just wanna share a pic of my fell0w classmates. this pic was taken in the middle of training time preparing for the sam musical presentation. yet, n0t all of them are in that pic, since f0ur members were missing!

intr0ducing...

the girls( from left to the right):
dyana, yuki, maggie, iris, joo anne, lih fern, joanne, sherin, jie hui, alin, irna and maryam...

presenting...

the guys(from right to the left):
cheng wei, syafiq, dnyal(me), yad, faris and chang yang...

enlighting...

the missing members:
fl0rence, adibah, clarine, and j0yce...

the J-nine-ians!!!

sambungan perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg1)

alangkah gembiranya hati ini!!!

tau knape?
ujian undang2 ari ahad ni ditunda!
hehehe...
ade ms utk study lg...:)
ceh, cm ye je nk study...=P

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg1)

hari rabu, 26 november 2008...

pergi ke melaka safety driving centre.
sampai agak awal, jadi pergi minum2 sekejap. minum milo lah!
beratur di kaunter, bagi cap jari. sekarang dah moden, guna alat elektronik. nasib baik tak kotor tangan[=P]
masuk dewan ceramah, daftar lagi.
0wh, dah ramai yang dah sampai rupenye, baru nak bangga[=P]
mula ceramah, ade ujian mate!!!
alamak, mane kaca mata aku???!!!=P
tidak mengapa, fullmarks aku dapat, tak payah guna spec lagi on the r0ad[=P]
mula ceramah dari pukul 9 pg smpi 3.30 ptg. of c0z ade rehat!

~selesai~

p/s:
ahad ni aku ade ujian undang2 jalan raye...
wish me luck!

uNdeSired aTmoSphEre...

i don't really acknowledge about what is going on! since i arrived at my h0metown, i can feel something uncomfortable. seems like i am really missing the environment and atmosphere 0f casa subang! 0f course it is totally different fr0m my h0metown, for i don't have much friends here [:(]. maybe i should give sometimes f0r me to adapt the changing atmosphere. sincerely, i really miss my friends, and everybody wh0 knows me; miss the rhythm of guitars, j0kes, laughter, and everything that i have experienced there! what ever you all have done t0 me, bad or go0d, i really miss them all! [:(] but no matter h0w, really h0pe that we can meet each other f0r the next semester! [:)]

tagged by dyana...

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?

we're just friends...

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.

i'm speechless...

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.

secret...

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?

secret also...

5. If he/she become your lover, you will…

c0uld it happen?

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will…

treat her nicely...

7. If he/she become your lover, he has to improve on…on his/her

no comment...

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is…

c0uld it happen?

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?

secret...

10. The overall impression of him/her is…

i'm speechless again...

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

s0me might happy, s0me might get ann0yed...

12. The character of you for yourself is?

unkn0wn...

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

always speechless...

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

still lo0king f0r...

15. For the people who likes you, say something about them.

they are a part 0f my vivid moment...

16. Ten people to tag:
1 aqila

2 nick

3 syafiq

4 zahid

5 laila

6 haziqa

7 zu(h2o)

8 radzi

9 shakira

10 rayhan

17.who is no. 2 having a relationship with?

icpu guys?=P

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

male

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?

erk!

20. How about no. 5 and 8?

can't, because 8 is already unavailable...=P

21. What is no. 1 studying about?

SAm for accounting

22. Is no. 4 single?

ask him...

23. Say something about no. 6

emphasize co-0peration? she's a J2 student...

wHaT a Day!

omg, s0 really deadly tired after having the telematch. yet, helluva pain brings ab0ut heavenly excitement! yeah, 0f course we sam exams-faced students have t0 experience s0me enjoyment among us bef0re we retreat 0urselves t0 0ur 0wn h0met0wn this weekend, s0me have already left casa th0ugh ( sh0wing jealosy t0 shakira:D). but, this is the only time left f0r us t0 hangout with 0ur 0wn housemates, 0ur classmates, and 0thers as well (d0 lecturers included?:D). talking ab0ut lecturers, we can see h0w d0 they act am0ng themselves 0nce they are in a gr0up. s0me 0f us w0n't believe seeing them acting like kids! 0mg, there's once i saw when they rushed t0 the kfc eagerly with the extra-pr0vided v0uchers which supp0sed to be handed t0 the students, yet wh0 ask them(students) f0r n0t attending this event?!:D sincerely, i was intended t0 n0t attend this time-wasting event i guessed, yet i g0t the enc0uragement fr0m my h0usemates f0r i realized that they were really wanting t0 get int0 it! in my heart, i cried, "ok, let's just g0 with the fl0w". f0rtunately, the telematch was n0t as expected earlier, since i was really enj0ying that m0ment. what a day!:D

tErRiFyiNg reSuLts!

i didn't believe once i get the results for all five subjects in mid sem exams! really terrifying because i was expecting for better outc0me, yet it turned bad, and terrible, as if i didn't ever studying th0se subjects bef0re. s0, i am w0ndering, was i playing ar0und f0r wh0le this sem? was i didn't study hard and smart f0r the desired achievement? 0r it is just a life plays, giving us challenges and obstacles t0 be faced, nurturing patience and strength f0r us t0 impr0ve and bec0me humbled? yeah, i really h0pe that the third one would be the reas0n, as this unexpected life still will be going t0 pr0vide a long j0urney f0r us t0 walkthrough, and misteries t0 be unraveled...:D

t0 miss julianne...

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t0 dYaNa...

Awesome MySpace Comments & Myspace Layouts

final day of exams...

reaching the end, was really excited...

yet, maths made my day turned helluva...

blanks here and there, saved inks to0 much...

yet, s0me were answered...

but are d0ubted whether or n0t it's its...

yet, just cried internally...

w0rrying f0r the upcoming results...

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continued with Malaysian studies...

yet, still had the same atm0sphere...

spaces alm0st all 0ver the pages...

yet, tried as much as capable...

with weird and freakish answers...

yet, just h0pe for the best result...

lecturers, please help me!!!

*no m0re exam-related p0sts, p0sting has already ended...

third day of final exams...

eager t0 have the final ended...

c0ncentrated studying until l0sing bag, taken by s0meone...

yet, it is in my hand n0w...

grateful t0 have the m0ney-giving bag back, since there is something valuable in it...

yet, still have t0 face accounting test...

clumsy and fears b0arded the atm0sphere, badly d0ne...

yet, let byg0nes be byg0nes...

just can't wait t0 have this helLuva week ended...

yet, one m0re post t0 be wrote...

sec0nd day 0f final exams...

eager t0 c0ntinue...

yet, ec0nomics's test was unlike the expected...

still were able t0 answer, with l0ng long elaboration...

yet, n0 extra paper pr0vided...

h0w t0 include left p0ints in that space-limited answer sheets?

yet, fully utilized the available 'resources', b0ttom and t0p of pages...

h0pefully, w0uld sc0re a high mark...

yet, it was freezing c0ld...

as if staying at the n0rth p0le...

yet, able t0 stand until the end...

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eager t0 continue...

yet, 2 h0urs 0f writing was really driving me crazy...

were able t0 finish it, are doubting on what has been d0ne...

yet, getting B in esl is in my hand...

h0pefully the highest of B...

yet, it is still B...

n0thing to be bent out of shape, just accept with what have i done...

yet, it was freezing c0ld, again...

it is the w0rst, since it was 2 h0urs...

yet, still can stand until the end...

once stepped outside, felt like a penguin walking under the sun...

yet, grateful t0 the h0tness...

but not all the time...

yet, this p0st will be continued...

wHat aBouT nOw...

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

first day of final exams!

eager t0 start!

yet, started with legal studies...

what the hell? late t0 get myself conveniently at the venue?

huh, lucky the exam had yet t0 begin...

yet, clumsy and perception-affecting attitude...

made me l0oked terrible...

yet, it was okay...

enjoy answering the questions, while busy counting future-guessed marks...

yet, the future will determine my result...

maybe early of next helluva week, since there's unkn0wned plans prepared for us...

yet, still have t0 be str0ng...

f0r finals have yet t0 end...:(

yet, this p0st has to be continued...:)

t0 alL saM sTudeNts July 08

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fAlL fOR You...

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

i'm l0siNg!

i don't know what had happened, just feel that i'm on da track of l0sing what have i owned before, what have i disc0vered before, what have i met in the past, and it's driving me into mourning b0arding atm0sphere! it's easy hurting anyone else's heart, yet it was something that i did, some mistakes that are almost unf0rgivable, and c0rrectable. through these mistakes, i'm l0sing my maturity, integrity, and bravery as well as the desired strength, especially f0r enduring this hardships-filled life. i'm n0t saying that i'm gonna c0mmit suicide, i mean i'm still sane t0 think about the precious life that our G0d has best0wed us. but, it is about h0w i'm g0nna face these heart-br0ken people, when i emerge into the real w0rld? for sure there are no 0ther places for me t0 run, and hide. this shameful and fearful soul has n0 one else t0 supp0rt (maybe there are, and maybe they are n0t really int0 it), s0 wandering around by acting nothing has happened, what a helluva mask i'm gonna wear? yah, maybe i just can try t0 get back and h0ld what's fading, yet i really don't kn0w what else can i d0 besides these ultimate-striving ways, which require l0ts of energy, and supp0rt!

what can i d0? is there anyone out there wh0 is willing t0 help me with these matters? are these heart-broken people would be willingly f0rgive me and shatter the wall between us for a new sun?(thanks t0 celine dion), is there anyone wh0 wants t0 share the strength that his or her owns, t0 supp0rt me striving f0r a desired ending?

the answers would be unleashed by the future, n0 one else may guess accurately, but everyone is always 0pened f0r h0ping a vivid result. and i h0pe the pers0n is gonna be you...

tO dYaNA...

s0rry for what i did t0 y0u bef0re.

s0rry f0r everything bad i did t0 y0u.

seriously, i d0n't wanna l0se a friend like y0u...:(

dOa sEoRaNg KekAsiH...

oh Tuhan
seandainya telah kau catatkan
dia milikku tercipta untuk diriku
satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
titipkanlah kebahagiaan

ya Allah, ku mohon
apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

ya Tuhanku yang Maha Pemurah
beri kekuatan jua harapan
membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa

ku pasrah kepadaMu
kurniakanlah aku
pasangan yang beriman
bisa menemani aku
supaya ku dan dia
dapat melayar bahtera
ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

ya Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku
dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendiri

akan aku bisa bahagia
walau tanpa bersamanya
gantikanlah yang hilang
tumbuhkan yang telah patah
ku inginkan bahagia
didunia dan akhirat
padaMu Tuhan ku mohon
segala...

doa seorang kekasih...

wHaT a BleSsiNg dAy!

i'm not really sure about the events happened made my day t0day a blessed one. since i was presenting f0r economy, this welL-perf0rmed presentation made me ultimately satisfied!!! i was quite clumsy while presenting, standing and presenting at the beginning. yet as it pr0gressed f0r a while, seems like i reached the enjoyment boarding atm0sphere and waallaaah~(thanks to qilah 'mamb0'...=P), everything went nice and perfect! it's driving me int0 m0re excitement once miss malini t0ld me that my presentation was ok though there was lack of presentation skills but i think p0sitively, that i made the best of mine for the presentation and i'm als0 satisfied with it, s0 there's nothing much t0 be w0rried about!=P

hAraPaN

harapan? apa yang anda tahu tentang harapan? apakah ia suatu kebaikan? atau kejahatan? atau apa-apa yang anda fikirkan tentang harapan, pada pendapat anda sendiri? walau apapun yang kita terjemahkan, satu konklusi hanya b0leh dicapai, kadangkala ia membawa berita gembira, dan kadangkala ia mengkhabarkan ssesuatu yang kita tidak inginkan. namun hakikatnya, manusia masih menaruh harapan, kerana mengharapkan apa yang mereka impikan, akan tercapai. tetapi, pernah atau tidak kita terfikir, apa akibatnya jika kita terus berharap? atau apa kesannya kepada kita, atau mungkin kepada orang lain sekiranya harapan itu tidak ditunaikan? tidak usah saya perincikan, kerana masing-masing ada penilaian dan persepsi sendiri. jadi, adakah menaruh harapan itu bagus? adakah menaruh harapan hanya mainan kehidupan? apa yang terngiang-ngiang di benak minda anda tentang harapan?

bukan niat saya untuk memburukkan harapan yang mungkin pernah membawa kebahagiaan dalam hidup kita, dan tidak terdetik dihati saya untuk memuja harapan yang menitiskan air mata sesiapa. tetapi, yang hanya saya inginkan adalah kesahan terhadap penyataan saya sebelum ini, apakah sumbangan harapan kepada kita? tatkala memikirkan kembali, saya berasa amat bersyukur kerana harapan wujud dalam senario perjalanan kehidupan kita, yang penuh dengan onak dan duka, namun, sebaliknya apabila harapan mengecewakan saya, menyebabkan saya terfikir, tidak ada gunanya saya berharap. apakah ini? adakah anda pernah memikirkan sedemikian tentang harapan?

walau apapun yang terjadi disebabkan harapan, ingatlah bahawa ia datang bukan semata-mata untuk menggembirakan, atau bukan semata-mata untuk menitiskan air mata kita, tetapi membawa perkhabaran yang tersirat, bahawa hidup ini menyediakan peluang kepada kita, bukan untuk mengulangi kesilapan atau kejahatan yang kita pernah lakukan, tetapi untuk kita memperbetulkan dan menginsafi kejadian sebelum ini, yang akan membakar semangat kita untuk terus berusaha, tanpa rasa putus asa.

jadi, diakhir rencana ini, telah terbit satu pendapat yang betul-betul konkrit untuk dipercayai dan dipegang. HARAPAN adalah teman, membawa kebahagiaan untuk menyenangkan hati kita, tetapi mengkhabarkan sesuatu yang menyedihkan, hanya untuk membisikkan kata semangat dan menyemai ketabahan dalam diri kita. 0leh sebab itu, hargailah harapan yang kita taruhkan, usah dek harapan yang tidak ditunaikan, kita terus menyalahkannya. kerana ingatlah, Tuhan Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk kita, dan seandainya suatu harapan yang kita impikan tidak tercapai, tetapkanlah hati kamu dengan berkata, "sesungguhnya, Tuhan tahu apa yang terbaik buatku, dan Dia lagi sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik dari apa yang aku impikan sebelum ini..."

nO mOre sHoOtiNg!!!

wallaaah~(fierce qilah's tM=P) at last, we all have done with the sh0oting session f0r lan pr0ject, and it's time f0r editing!!! 0f course it would be n0t me t0 make it a c0mplete and finalised video, but still i'm the pers0n wh0 would help them in what matter (really?). as you alL can see, this is a picture 0f us, p0sing f0r the cover of our dVd case! haha, d0n't get jeloused. actually, it is a blessing in disguise, since we will n0t be able t0 see the other sides 0f 0ur classmates!!! hurm, really curious 0f what would they d0 if we extend the sho0ting session. the available recorded videos have already pr0ved that they acted like they were n0t themselves, meaning that alL this time we get t0gether, these actions are w0rth to be seen as those are n0t frequently and rarely sh0wed. there are s0me who act childishly bef0re, but this video would make you think twice, "is she really that mean???", besides, s0me wh0 are quiet in the class, n0w are really enj0ying and even dancing in this video. theref0re, you all sh0uld be eager t0 watch this as it would make you laugh out l0ud, tickled, yet enjoyed. d0n't miss it keyh!!!=P and credits sh0uld be given t0 alL malay J-Nine-ians f0r alL your supp0rts and co0perations thr0ughout this sh0rt-termed sho0ting and editing, filled with vivid and j0yfull moments. h0pe to co0perate with you guys again!!!

nO MoRe ieLtS!!!

finally, i have been through the m0st scariest event ever! haha, n0pelah, it was just ielts test, inv0lving listening, reading and writing c0nsequently. what am i feeling right n0w, n0thing! hah, don't kn0w why, maybe because i did well! [=P] arh, since ielts is 0ver, n0 more beautiful lecturer, ms chin! i'm gonna miss her s0 much, as she taught really well and effective i think. but actually, it is just a blessing in disguise. haha, f0r the next time, there will be n0 more eap! yet, for sure i have t0 concentrate on my other subjects, f0r the final exam for this sem is around the c0rner!!! still w0rrying about accounting and legal. huh, definitely i have t0 break my brains out since both subjects require deep understanding. in a nutshell, just kind of feeling relieved, and being on the g0 with t0nnes of assignments, and exercises as well. yet, i don't have t0 bent out of shape as i would be able sc0ring the best result if i study and struggle besides c0mmited t0 whatever i 'm doing. basically, right n0w is the time f0r enjoying h0liday, and f0r th0se who are hindus, happy deepavali!

jEnaKa kiTa...

Sepasang suami isteri mendapat peluang untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke luar negara. Oleh kerana tempoh pembelajaran memakan masa yang lama maka mereka sepakat untuk menjual harta yang ada termasuk sebuah rumah.

Lalu datang seorang lelaki yang agak berumur untuk melihat keadaan rumah. Setelah puas meninjau dalam dan luar rumah, lelaki itu bersetuju untuk membelinya.

Si suami tadi secara jujur menjelaskan tentang kedudukan rumah tersebut. ?Di sebelah barat terdapat sebuah kilang getah, manakala bahagian selatan ada kilang belacan dan di utara adalah tempat pembuangan sampah,? jelas tuan rumah.

Kalau begitu apa keistimewaannya jika saya membeli rumah ini,? tanya lelaki itu kepada tuan rumah.

Salah satu keistimewaannya ialah, anda boleh mengetahui dari mana arah angin yang bertiup,” jawabnya selamba

sahabat sejati

pernah atau tidak kamu semua terfikir sama ada sahabat sejati muncul hanya sekali dalam hidup kita? saya bukan sekadar terfikir, malah saya yakin, dan percaya bahawa kenyataan ini adalah benar dan sah. walaupun umur saya sekadar setahun jagung, masih belum mengenal dan buta tentang erti kehidupan sebenar, namun pengalaman selama 18 tahun inliah yang membuatkan saya tersedar, "ah, memang betul kenyataan ini".

hanya muncul sekali dalam kehidupan kita, sudah tentu kerana dia adalah orang yang teristimewa yang pernah berdampingan dengan kita, berkongsi suka dan duka, menitiskan air mata bersama, gelak dan ketawa bersama, berkongsi masalah dan pengalaman manis bersama, semua ini membuatkan kita berasa bahagia kerana bertemu dangannya. tapi apa yang membuatkan saya terfikir begitu adalah, selama 18 tahun saya berada di bumi Allah ini, hanya sekali saya dapat merasakan erti persahabatan yang sejati. tatkala kita sedih, pasti ada yang memberi sokongan dan dorongan, apabila kita menitiskan air mata, ada sahaja yang sudi mencemarkan jari-jari mereka untuk mengesat air mata yang mengalir di pipi kita, dan tatkala kita berjaya dan gembira atas kejayaan itu, pasti sahaja orang itu bagaikan orang yang paling gembira didunia, kerana melihat kita gembira dan berjaya. pernahkah anda mengalami semua ini selama kehidupan anda di dunia ini? bukan untuk menyalahi takdir yang sudah semestinya ditangan yang Esa, namun realitinya, pengalaman inilah yang membuatkan saya sentiasa kuat apabila mengenangkannya.

dan inilah yang saya alami disaat saya mencoretkan semua ini. sebak apabila memikirkan kembali, dan sedar akan ketiadaan dia yang suatu ketika dulu pernah menjadi penghibur tidak kira di waktu duka atau suka. hakikatnya, saya disini, bagaikan seorang pedagang, yang melayarkan bahteranya, namun sayang kerana tiada anak kapal yang menjadi teman bersuka ria tika di tengah lautan.

namun hakikatnya pada hari ini, sahabat yang pernah berada disisi, sudah jauh dimata, akan tetapi, kenangan dan pengalaman ketika bersama dengan dia tidak akan saya lupakan, selama-lamanya...

jEnaKa kiTa...

Seorang wanita memohon jawatan tukang sapu di MSC Cyberjaya. Pegawai di situ telah mengadakan temuduga dan meminta wanita itu menunjukkan caranya membersih lantai.. Lalu dia mengatakan “Anda diterima bekerja, berikan email anda, kami akan mengirim maklumat yang diperlukan.” Wanita itu menyatakan yang dia tidak memiliki komputer dan juga email. Penemuduga terus mengatakan bahawa tanpa email.. wanita itu tidak boleh diambil sebagai pekerja.

Wanita itu menerima keputusan itu dengan rasa kecewa dan hanya memiliki RM10. lalu dia pergi ke Supermarket terdekat dan membeli 10 kg sayur. Lalu dijualnya sayur tersebut dari pintu ke pintu dan habis dalam masa 2 jam saja. Dia mendapat untung sekali ganda.. Lalu diulanginya kerja tersebut dan menjadikannya sebagai pekerjaan tetapnya.. Setelah beberapa waktu.. dia mampu membeli Lamborghini dan mengembangkan perniagaannya dengan membuka beberapa supermarket di sekitar Kuala Lumpur.

Suatu hari.. dia terlintas untuk mengambil insuran untuk diri dan keluarganya… Dipanggilnya penjual insuran datang kepejabatnya…. Setelah bersetuju… Penjual insuran berkata.. “Minta email Puan…” “Oh.. maaf saya tidak ada komputer dan email” jawab wanita itu.

Penjual Insuran terkejut dan berkata “Aneh.. Puan mempunyai perniagaan yang besar, tapi tidak mempunyai komputer dan email. Bayangkan apa yang Puan boleh lakukan jika Puan memiliki komputer dan email.” Wanita itu menjawab: “Jadi tukang Sapu di MSC Cyberjaya”

v0iCiNg One'S oPinIoN...

i'm enjoying my l***-meandering m0ment. as i stated in my p0st bef0re, just feeling empty, and unsoul f0r it seems like i am really fall in l*** with her! yet, she's far, far away. and i'm here, continuing my life in a lawyer-making studies, facing diverse characters, multi-tasking assignments, loads of h0mework, and housework as well, since i'm living in comfortable apartment, [a blessing in disguise actually] s0, enduring this future-undefined life, requires us t0 be more energetic, and patient as it is full of hustle bustle b0arding experience, filled with vivid happiness, as well as tear-dropping mem0ries, which teach us t0 be stronger. h0wever, i'm not going t0 enlight this l*** t0pic back, but just want t0 headline a new and essential fact or philosophical 0pinion.

it is actually difficult t0 satisfy all kinds of players in this enourmous human-living dimension. once u tried t0 fulfil one's request, the other sides would feel dilapidated. yet, there is also some people who doesn't act wisely, f0r they keep condemning, pressuring and taking the others down just t0 satisfy his or her own uncontr0llable emotion. besides, they simply ign0res the fact that they should n0t ch0ose to s0cialize within a limited range, as they would dig their 0wn graves f0r acting like a picky creature, making your own w0rld, by simply neglect the people around them. they should realize the fact that they live in a diverse character-living w0rld, means that they should try t0 inv0lve the s0ciety around them in their own netw0rk, not just set your 0wn standards which the people have t0 fulfil, and finally end up with t0nnes 0f pr0blems relating t0 the society.

in a nutshell, we have t0 reflect ourselves in fr0nt of the mirr0r, realize the fact that not all humans are perfect, s0me make slight mistakes, some act in a bad manner, s0me still have their 0wn integrity, but the thing is we have t0 inv0lve the society, means that appreciating them, and accepting their 0pinions and behavior, as these would make you a better person and companian f0r those who are searching f0r valuable friends, and if you're the lucky 0ne, you should be very grateful, f0r you have already achieve the highest level 0f mankind, which is being a 'khalifah' and making this w0rld a peacefull and tranquil place t0 live, without any revenge and bad perspectives...

jEnaKa kiTa...

Seorang ibu muda sedang mengadu pada temannya,

“Aku terpaksa minta cerai dari suamiku.”

“Kenapa..?” tanya temannya kehairanan.

“Habis, hampir setiap malam kerjanya keluar masuk disko,” jawab si ibu muda.

“OOOOhh, jadi suamimu itu kaki disko lah yer.. ?” tanya temannya lagi.

“Bukan begitu..,sebenarnya dia ke sana mencari aku !” jawab si ibu muda.

InFiNitELy mIsS hEr!!!

i d0n't kn0w what has happened t0 me recently, it is just like i'm 'angau' once again. but luckily, n0t t0wards a new one, but the 0ne and only wh0 i l---, once up0n a time...[=)] yet, until this m0ment, my feeling t0wards her is ultimately uncontr0lled!!! it is kind of w0rrying me f0r i didn't expect it t0 be unleashed back... s0, in the meantime, i'm thinking 0f s0me ways t0 get us cl0ser, since she's studying in mesir!!!

i just recapped some sentences which i delivered t0 her, many of them through smses, as we were just finishing study in SBP--. you kn0w why? it's because this sacred feeling 0nly came up after that ending scho0l time!!! but actually, i have already l---d her since we were participating as a team in malay debating representing our scho0l. and 0f course, co0perating with her in a team was really a memorable experience, besides chatting about s0mething out of necessary t0pics [=)] i think, i was quite interesting in debate just because of her. she als0 used t0 encourage me t0 perf0rm the best, t0 win of course, yet the experience was much valuable... and i always lo0ked at her when it was me t0 debate, s0 actually she was quite inspiring me [=P]

remembering the past m0ment with her truly reflects 0ne of the happines in my life, i mean it's hard t0 find someone wh0 is c0mfortable and inspiring as she does. if you used t0 call my cellph0ne, and view this bl0g, the s0ng that i placed is just the same, 'when you look me in the eyes'... this is the s0ng which i dedicated t0 her, 0nce up0n a time... [=)] and still, and will always unleash my feeling t0wards her through this s0ng...

l0ve
y0u
always...=)

0ur j0kes...

A new client had just come in to see a famous lawyer.
“Can you tell me how much you charge?”, said the client.
“Of course”, the lawyer replied, “I charge $200 to answer three questions!”
“Well that’s a bit steep, isn’t it?”
“Yes it is”, said the lawyer, “And what’s your third question?”

dOne wiTh IeLtS...

fuh~ finally, i'm done with ielts speaking test [=)] i'm relieved right n0w, because i'm only just waiting f0r the next '0bstacles' which are listening, reading and writing test. it would be h0ld 0n this saturday!!! 0mg, can't say anything about the test, it's undescribable actually, f0r it's quite easy, though sometimes quite challenging. regarding 0n the speaking test which i have d0ne with it just n0w, it was amazing!!! i think surely that i have done well!!! [=)] just having some pr0blems with the interviewer, f0r he seems t0 expected t0 much fr0m me, even though he should know that i'm n0t really go0d at speaking in english, but still he acted like i'm very terrible!!! that als0 can't be f0rgotten as well when imagining back his reaction, and some (uwek) expression 0n his face. yet, it's quite fun f0r i had a very friendly interviewer, maybe this is contrary with my statement bef0re, but it's the truth... he seems arrogant, but actually, i could feel that we're enj0ying the c0nversation!!! plus, it's a f0reigner interviewer, s0 i'm feeling very grateful because, at last i had a chance, maybe the first bef0re i fly t0 aussie!!! [h0pe that i can make it] s0, f0r th0se who are g0ing t0 be interviewed, just be y0urself, don't panic and enj0y giving y0ur 0pinion for these would make you perf0rm better, and maybe the best shot of yours!!!

jEnaKa kiTa...

Satu pagi di stesen ketapi, ada satu makcik tu dia tanya petugas kaunter

Makcik : Anak, keretapi sampai jam berapa??

Petugas kaunter: Jam 2 Kedah, jam 5 Kelantan, jam 1 Penang, jam 7 Gemas. Makcik nak pergi mana??

Makcik : Makcik nak melintas aja.

s0 FruStRatInG!!!

n0 w0nder studying legal studies is painful and stressful [:o] can u imagine h0w frustrated i was when i attended the legal class??? we all are already getting prepared f0r a test, which is said t0 be the c0mmon test f0r this subject, yet when the lecturer stepped int0 the class and started distributing the question paper, we all g0t heart attack plus mighty shock as well... of courselah, he did say last week that he's g0ing to held a c0mmon test f0r us, and th0se who are scared t0 get knocked by him straight away struggled t0 'death'... but the end of the day, when we got the question paper, we all g0t shocked, and f0r me it was really ****... it's just a quiz for us t0 check our pr0gress on the subject!!! ceh, if i knew it bef0re, i won't get stressful on the weekend which was supp0sed t0 be enjoyed... i was like, want t0 thr0w t0nnes of st0nes t0 him (mr vijay)... but actually, serves me right because the questions are repeated, and i was quite blur answering s0me questions, but the end 0f the day, it's really h0peful, h0pefully... [=P] s0, m0ral of the st0ry, don't just study f0r tests, but study f0r your own gains and benefits, f0r a bright and guaranteed future, as i'm g0nna be a lawyer, s0 i should have this matter settled bef0re anything comes up and distracts my path t0wards the glory!!! wish me the best, and u'll be wished als0... [really?] =P

jEnaKa kiTa...

Seorang ahli silap mata mempertunjukkan kebolehannya di sebuah kapal mewah di lautan Caribbean. Penontonnya selalu berganti setiap minggu tetapi dia tetap mengulang-ulangi trik yang sama.

Masalahnya adalah: Seekor burung kakak tua yang pandai berkata-kata milik kapten kapal selalu melihat pertunjukannya setiap minggu dan menjadi tahu tipuan-tipuan yang dilakukan oleh ahli silap mata . Suatu malam ketika ahli silap mata membuat pertunjukan, si burung berteriak di tengah-tengah pentas.

“Lihat.. !! Itu bukan topi yg sama !!”
“Dia menyembunyikan bunga-bunga itu di bawah meja !!”
“Hey… semua daun terupnya,daun A !! “

Si ahli silap mata sangat jengkel tapi tidak dapat berbuat apa-apa.
Suatu hari kapal tersebut mengalami kecelakaan dan tenggelam. Si ahli
silap mata terapung2 di tengah lautan di atas sebuah papan bersama si
burung kakak tua.

Mereka saling pandang memandang dgn penuh kebencian tapi tidak mengucapkan satu patah kata pun.Ini berlangsung berhari-hari.Si ahli silap mata pun hairan kenapa si burung tak mahu terbang menyelamatkan diri.Setelah satu minggu, tiba-tiba si burung berkata “OK… saya menyerah!! Di mana kamu sembunyikan kapalnya ??”

pLaN fOr tHis wEekeNd!!!

hurm, of course i need t0 d0 s0me revision 0n legal studies, f0r on m0nday i have the first c0mmon test of this subject!!! eager t0 answer, but at the same time, nerv0us as well!!! nah, just f0rget my fear, and enj0y first!!! why n0t? t0day is Saturday right? s0, don't get stressful if i said i'm g0nna study t0morr0w [=P] h0pe t0 have enough time, because this subject can't be underestimated, it's difficult!!! s0, relaxation is the key, and i'm g0nna relax f0r t0day!!!

uLtiMaTeLy fRusTraTeD!!!

argh!!! it's driving me crazy day by day... just d0ne with the ieLts m0ck test, and you kn0w what??? i did badly!!! n0 wonder, because the s0und system isn't s0 h0peful t0 be pr0ud of... just blur hearing what the helL are the people is talking ab0ut... f0r some cases, i did hear it clearly, f0rtunately i mean... 0veralL, f0r me i think it's quite difficuLt!!! oh my g0sh, h0w am i g0nna d0 with the real 0ne??? f0r sure the place would be in the MPH... haa~, i'm l0udly crying here [:((] 0f course, this test is the 0ne that w0uld ensure where would we be in the future, either the best university, 0r the (ceh2) 0ne... n0w, i'm eager t0 kn0w my result, h0pefully still have chance t0 impr0ve, and getting better... just wanna sc0re the best and give the mighty best sh0t!!! wish me luck to0...[=P]

fRusTratEd+gRaTeFuL...

hurm, lo0ks like my dReam didn't c0me true...[=(] i have already t0ld y0u bef0re that i'm sure t0 sc0re the greatest marks for ec0nomy test right? lo0ks like it turns the 0ther way ar0und... i just sc0red 2* 0ver 35 [=(] i'm s0 dissap0inted yet quite grateful f0r i still have chance t0 get an A f0r ec0nomy test in dis final semester's test... i'm n0t blur 0r d0n't understand ab0ut the t0pic, it's just i did silly mistakes f0r misinterpret the questions and didn't answer pr0perly and completely... argh!!! just have t0 be more critically think ab0ut certain t0pics f0r this subject... never mind, still have time t0 refresh my mem0ry, and t0p up s0me missing ideas, and i'm ready f0r the battle!!![=)]

m0re tEsT tO g0!!!

haiyaa!!! g0t 0ne m0re tEst t0moRr0w... acTualLy, it'S jUst a m0ck test f0r ieLts sTuff, bUt stiLl a tEst wHat??? iT's quIte haRd beCause iT's inVolviNg lisTening, reaDing and wRitiNg teSt... hUh, It's reaLly imp0rtaNt f0r we arE abLe t0 apPly f0r a welL-kn0wn university 0nce you sc0re the best band... 0f coUrse u wIsh t0 furTher y0ur sTudy In a welL-kN0wn and eLegant unIverSity wHat??? h0pe tHat i dEserve It... [=P] s0, 0ne moRe reQuest fr0m tEst-adDicted sTudent [???] , wIsh me A go0d luCk!!![=P]

tHanK GoD...[:)]

fuh~...f0rtuNately, i cAn anSwer tHe quEstI0ns f0r thE ec0noMy tEst veRy2 welL [=)] The queStions sEem liKe to0 mUch, For i aLm0st uNabLe t0 comPletE th0se [=?]h0pe t0 sc0re the besT markS 0f tHem alL!!! wisH mE lUck thEn...[=P]

m0rE TeSt!!!

ish3...it's driving me crazy right n0w!!! t0morr0w i have ec0nomy test!!! but, actually i d0n't have any w0rry f0r the test [=P] yah, of courselah, because it's one 0f my fav0urite subject what??? h0pe to sc0re the highest marks 0ne more time [h03] plus, i have just finishing my study f0r this subject, s0 no w0rry at alL...(ceh) n0w, it's time f0r s0cial netw0rking!!!

AaRgHh!!!

i thought of it already, and it's true!!!...y0u kn0w what??? i sc0red badly f0r Malaysian studies [:(] huhuhu, so sad...but actually, serves me right because i even didn't study at alL!!!...hurm, maybe just did a little skimming, so that's why the result turns that undesired way [=P] h0w t0 study lan? once y0u take a lo0k at the n0tes got fr0m bb7, even just for a while, you might get stressed 0ut, because the n0tes are damned l0ng!!! it's kind of wierd for the lecturer previewed the less0n's slides, which are more simplified than her n0tes!!! seems like having history, getting back t0 secondary scho0l(fuh~) but, stilL c0mpulsory f0r me t0 sc0re this subject what??? as i'm taking law course, s0 i should be m0re inf0rmative about Malaysia right??? hurm, p0or me [:(] in a nutshell, just try t0 put the best eff0rt to score the best result if y0u don't want ending by regreting on what y0u have done in the past...

ReNunGaN...

orang yang berilmu itu selalu menang dalam pergaulan kerana dia mempamerkan senyuman apabila dicaci, lemah lembut apabila dihina, diam apabila dimarahi, dan membalas kebaikan apabila orang membuat kejahatan...

gLaD tHat iT's OvEr...

not all that glitter are golds...

not all that shine are diamonds...

but friend will always be friends...

hAte tHeM!!!

i ultimately hate THEM!!!

n0 space to breath...

no time t0 spend...

just hate THEM!!!

oUcH!!! tHaT's hUrT...

haiya!!!what happened? who's finger is this? of course my classmate, *****...po0r him(clue)...that's why your mum said not to play with STAPLERS!!!hoh0ho...served you right...(so mean...)actually, this happened during the maths class, at the time when we had to submit the exercises on derivative function (what's that again?)...of course maths' questions do use several papers to answer those right? so once completed, we have to staple it together...then, my 'naughty' classmate was eager playing with the stapler when his finger get stapled until bleeding...u can see the blo0d right? the red one( of courselah)...actually, we, the guys just laughed at him...why not? one also could get hurt using stapler what???=P...hahaha!!!but it is just an injury by minor dangerous to0l what?...that's why it seems funny!!!lol...=P...it's ok, everything is fine n0w, no need t0 have medical check up, no need t0 lay in a ward, no need t0 use medicines...don't be so worry because it didn't hurt at all, for him laa as he was a 'small' soldier(one more clue)...=P...wish the best luck for him, ok?...cau...

A nEw DaY hAs CoMe...

i was waiting for so long
for a miracle to come
everyone told me to be strong
hold on and don't shed a tear

through the darkness and good times
i knew i'd make it through
and the world thought i had it all
but i was waiting for you

hush now
i see a light in the sky
it's almost blinding me
i can't believe
i've been touched by an angel with love

let the rain come down and wash away my tears
let it fill my soul and drown my fear
let it shatter the wall for a new sun
a new day has come...

i'M s0rRy, nIcK haZwAnI...

i'M gEtTiNg wOrSt...

i don't know what happen to me recently, just like i don't have any mood to carry on this mean life...:(...i feel like my strength is fading, away and far away...and possibly it won't come back, unfortunately...po0r me...if anyone wants to encourage me, i really appreciate it because i'm losing myself, drowning in falsehood, wandering in the dark, all alone...help me!!!:(

alL AlOnE...

if i had but two little wings
and were a little feathery bird,
to you i'd fly, my dear!
but thoughts like these are idle things,
and i stay here.

but in my sleep to you i fly:
i'm always with you in my sleep!
the world is all one's own.
but then one wakes, and where i am?
all, all alone.

sleep stays not, though a monarch bids:
so i love to wake ere break of day:
for though my sleep be gone,
yet while it's dark, one shuts one's lids,
and still dreams on.

rAyA sPiRiT iS faDiNg aWay...

what else can i say??? it's totally true that time is unstoppable...and what ever starts will end so0n...wa!!! why does it same goes to raya??? don't wanna go back home!!!...o0pss, i mean casa subang, my second home...:(...wawawa!!!...yet, i also think that it's gonna be great after this because my friends and i especially muslims are able to g0 out for lunch t0gether!!!...hoh0ho...actually, i just wanna ask all of you guys, HOW'S YOUR RAYA???...mine is not so joyfull...:(...since some of my relatives are celebrating everywhere all over Malaysia, it seemed no excitement when going back to my h0metown...just a few family members were gathering at that time...actually, it would be better if celebrating among big crowd...but, what else can i do, they have their own family to0, so just let it be...:(...as a concluson, to all members of BANI HASHIM, it's c0mpuls0ry to get back to melaka next years!!!...i'm serious, n0 joke...huhuhu...=P