THIS I PROMISE YOU...

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

NSYNC
THIS I PROMISE YOU

A nEw DaY hAs CoMe...

i didn't expect this to happen, instead i was hoping that it would be a real story of my life. yet, i should face the reality, that mounting hope which i have faith on is not going to be made into real.

of course i'm disappointed. agreeing that he wants to start a new chapter of life without remembering back the past, and asking for time to change himself and get ready for a new best friendship, but in the end he said that he just can't be as he was before.

the reason? 'just reflect back on what you have done'. excuse me? i thought you have said you want to start a new chapter of life without looking back at the past, and i have got your message saying that, but still you said that i'm at fault because of the past? are you fooling around with me?

i just can't accept the fact that he suddenly said that he can't fulfil and keep his promise, even though i have explained and reminded him of the risks, about my damn sadness if he broke his promise, but still he decided to do so. can't you imagine hurting my feelings?

at the first place, i decided to leave, but you're the one who said that you just need more time to change, and be ready for a new one. even i have said that i will be waiting for it. but then, it turns out that you're not able to befriend with me as before. if you just let me leave at the first place, i would be a lot happier now. what have you done?

it seems like i have to start a new life. real new life. i'm sorry if i have burdened you all this while, and this time i'll be leaving for real. i do appreciate what we have done and enjoyed during our friendship goes before. thanks for everything, FAREWELL...

*to the readers, i bet you will not know the reason why i have to leave. mainly it's about my perceptions and feelings, and that's why i have to do so...

THANK YOU...

last night was blissful, as if i have found a glimpse of heaven. the night where a mounting hope started to become a reality. i'll give you time, i'll give you chance to prove it.

it's true i have been disappointed many times because of hoping. but this time, i shall believe in your words. i wish by the time you're ready, we'll become best friends.

i'm sorry if you're burdened seeing me putting a heavy responsibility on you. it's just that i'm afraid of disappointment, and i hope this one will cheer me up and prove me that not all hope bring disastrous experience.

i'll be waiting. since you have promised to me that you're going to make it real, i would like to thank you for giving me a guaranteed hope.

but trust me, if you broke your words that you said last night, my world would come to an end, where there's no one whom i can trust anymore, making me drowned into helluva hatred towards hope.

oh my dear God, please listen to my instinct. i hope he's the second one, and i hope it's true...

NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE 2

this is a continuation of previous post. starting a new chapter of life is not easy, for we have to consider lots of things, including how we should organize our lives thereafter, what should we do, and who should we trust to be part of it. i'm not saying that we have to neglect others, but in a new chapter with a new life, new environment, sacrifice is crucial. and this is what i'm going to do...

NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE

why do i call it as a 'new chapter of life'? because, starting from this moment, i'll be living without getting to know any matters regarding someone who i appreciated throughout my life in college so called my best friend (in the eyes of mine). yet, it didn't go in the way that i preferred as he disappointed me and accused me of destroying his happiness. to some extent, i agree and i have asked for forgiveness from him, but he just won't forgive me forever. what i can say now is i have done my part, asking him desperately to forgive me, even it's not truly and totally my fault. still, if he thinks that i'm the 1 who should be blame for all that happened to him, for goodness sake i would rather stay away from his life forever! yeah, that's what i'm going to do. lastly, i hope nothing could bring and refresh back the memories i have had with him before, since i am really2 disappointed with his words. no matter what, this is the best for us, and for him to reflect on what he has done blaming on others without admitting his fault.

with that, i shall end my post. FAREWELL, my friend...

it's time

selepas apa yang telah berlaku baru-baru ini, aku sudah membuat keputusan.

mungkin ini yang terbaik untuk dia, dan terbaik untuk aku.

walaupun hanya terbaik untuk dia, aku tetap akan lakukan.

ya, aku sudah tekad.

bukan bermakna aku sudah berputus asa.

cuma aku pasti inilah sebaiknya.
__________

terima kasih, itu ucapan aku untuk dia.

buat seketika berkenalan dengan dia di Taylor's, aku rasakan diri aku hidup di kolej ni.

setiap hari yang aku lalui amat bermakna dengan kehadiran dia.

apa sahaja yang menghalang, aku tak peduli sebab ada dia.
__________

maafkan aku.

kerana harapan aku amat tinggi ditaruh pada kau.

kerana aku mengharapkan seseorang untuk menjadi kawan baik aku disini.

namun, hakikatnya aku ditakdirkan untuk keseorangan.

tidak mengapa, aku juga tidak ingin menyusahkan dia.

sekali lagi aku minta maaf.
__________

aku tidak pasti jika aku mampu bernafas seperti dulu.

atmosfera sudah tidak sama dengan kehilangan dia.

tapi, apakan daya.

dia sudah tidak mahu menerima aku semula, dan aku tidak boleh salahkan dia.

tidak mengapa sekiranya inilah balasan patut menimpa diri aku.
__________

sudah tiba masanya, untuk aku ucapkan selamat tinggal.

selamat tinggal pada kenangan dan harapan yang aku taruh.

kelihatan ia tidak akan menjadi realiti, dan mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya.

walaubagaimanapun, aku akan sedia menerima dia semula, sekiranya dia sudah memaafkan aku dan sudi menerima aku semula.