Into The New World

the above picture is SNSD's Into The New World song's picture. it inspires me of what we were, how do we change as time passes by, what do we do to achieve our goals, and how do you do to gain success that we dream of.

that's what i'll be experiencing in 2 days time, entering a whole new world with bright future and precious experience to be discovered and explored. in 2 days time, i'll be away from beloved family, local-made friends and relatives, not to mention i'm leaving them and Malaysia for 4 years to further my studies in the University of Adelaide.

for now, there's nothing that i can feel within myself. not that i'm excited to fly, and not that i'm so sad to leave home for Australia. maybe it's just too early to feel both ways. rather i am looking forward to flying and continuing my studies and getting the chance to perform excellently in what i am doing, and what i am aiming for in the future, which is to become a successful lawyer.

entering a new world, isn't bad to gain lots of knowledge that this world holds, unravel lots of mysteries that this world covers, and meet other communities and exchange our perceptions and opinions in every field that this world dominates. but 1 thing for sure, challenges are waiting for us, to make us hurt and rather disappointed of facing failures in everything we struggled just to be as successful as we can achieve.

i do admit that i'm not so strong, even i don't know what would i do if failures come and hit me non-stop. however, failures aren't bad friends, they teach us to be stronger day by day, more determined, and able to stand up if we have fallen. there's no gain with no pain. the damage that you have been inflicted with does not kill you straight away, and failures are not meant to kill, rather they are needed for betterment.

this is what i will uphold while being in foreign country. i'll always remember that no one will help us throughout our journey all the time, except ourselves. be independent, and more responsible to myself, that's the key to success.

that's it, bring it on!

Recovering the Loss

it has been 2 years since last time i debated. throughout my participation, i always found it interesting, and rather useful especially in my studies and personal skill development. being a law student, speech-delivering skill is significant to become a successful presenter.

yesterday, was a day for me to recover what i have lost for 2 years. yesterday was a 1-day participation to remind me of what i have participated in, and what i have developed within me. even though the session was short for me, it is something to be memorized and used as guidelines. it was a debate training session with seniors and juniors of my secondary school, Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Integrasi Selandar.

i participated in a match, and debated after 2 years of not debating. i still found it something to be proud of as i could present excellently even though it has been a long time i stopped debating, rather exciting i have shown my skills and talents to the juniors for them to learn and improve.

apart from getting back my debater title, i also recovered something that i have forgotten, the school memories i had with my friends and juniors. i got to meet some who i still recognize and even remember their names. some say i have changed a lot, but 1 thing that time does not change is, me as a student who was there, studying and enjoying school moments once upon a time, like them now.

the scenery is still the same, but there are additional features and views added to the school. at least i have come to the place where i belonged few years back, before i fly to Australia next week, the University of Adelaide specifically, furthering my studies and getting new experience in foreign countries.

1 thing for sure, there's no blame to put if you turn your head back to the past as it shall recover precious memories you have enjoyed, and your identity, knowing about who you were last time.

1 Litre No Namida

"Why did this disease choose me? I can't accept it just with the word 'fate'..."

this is a quote from a Japanese drama which was based on a real life story of a girl who had an incurable disease, Ikeuchi Aya. throughout the drama, her fate is visualized way back from early moment before knowing the fact about her having the disease, until her very end suffering on this so-called cruel world.

is it? the world that we are living on, the place where we breathe fresh air in and out, the paradise with beautiful panoramas and views, diverse cultures and moral values, the place where most people do their best in their lives, the place where poor people get helps from concerned neighbors, even throughout the world. with that, is it reasonable to say it's cruel?

looking back at another perspectives, where rich people become richer without paying their attention on helping those who are in need, intelligent generation who gain lots of success neglecting their parents who don't even ask for luxury from their children, and criminals walking down the street without being arrested when corrupted government is on duty, isn't it reasonable to say so?

in this drama, i learnt a lot. from society's perspective to individual concern. it's all about love and sharing worst cases with others. pity, is not for lowering standards of people, it's just about taking other people's pain as ours. ashamed, is not for departing your families because of who they are, it's just about being more understanding and tolerant to each other. jealousy, is not totally about being envied because of other people's achievements, rather it's about motivating yourself to become better person.

even though her ability was 1 by 1 and slowly taken away due to this cruel disease, she still kept herself on track and tried as best as she can to live her life even with limited mobility and using wheelchair. for what she thought of in her mind was, being useful to the society at the best of her ability. no matter how small you contribute, as long as you're doing the as best as you can, it's something to be proud of.

i'm sorry for not giving out the synopsis, even if i have watched the drama series 3 times already. nevertheless, the moral values and philosophies derived from the drama are rather important to be expressed. therefore, if anyone of you who haven't watched this drama, i would suggest you to have a look. how life changes in times, how unlucky fate has bestowed courage, and how love could change people. let's have a look at these quotes, and let yourself dive into it...

"if you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...i'm alive..."

"people shouldn't dwell on the past. it is enough to try your best in all that you're doing now..."

"even though i have been hurt by those heartless glances, this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glances. therefore, i definitely won't run away. that's what i'll do. definitely, always..."

that's all, sayonara...

Dancing on the World Stage

this is another music video uploaded from my MV-saving folder. i am attracted to this song because of DBSK's powerful voices, especially at chorus part. besides, this song which is entitled 'Bolero', really inspires me of what are constituted in our lives, dreams and goals those are.
this MV is about a young girl who are really interested in Ballet dance. however, she just cant appear herself as a dancer in front of crowd because she's stuck in hesitation, about her ability and talent. she thinks, she could not stand on stages and is too humble, since particularly in this MV she is just a cleaner. everyday, she will just watch other girls practicing without any intention to show her own talent, and keep doubting until one day when her talent is noticed by the coach at the moment where she unintentionally shows all that she's got when she opens her steps, alone in the room, dancing.
that's how life constitutes dreams and goals. i believe each and everyone of us has our own dreams, and goals. no matter how ridiculous they are, some of us we'll try as much as we could and struggle for them. but there are some people who have their dreams, and only keep dreaming without realizing their own ability, talent and skill to show before they retreat far backward.
i admit that i might be some of those who cant really stand on the stage alone. but that does not mean we cant go farther, as what we should do is open ourselves to the world. there are a lot of opportunities for us to try, lots of success to achieve, lots of failures to experience, so that we could become more successful in life.
it has been 20 years. so far, i have had so much opportunities, heart-breaking moments, precious successes, and companies among friends and relatives. in fact, less than 2 weeks from now, i'll be gone for some years, furthering my studies in real new life, and environment. this is an opportunity for me to expand my perspectives in life, at other places. i will appreciate this very opportunity and i'm gonna show to the world, someone like me can also be successful!
that's all, wish me luck!=)
UNIVERSITY OF ADELAIDE, HERE I COME!!!