i'm l0siNg!

i don't know what had happened, just feel that i'm on da track of l0sing what have i owned before, what have i disc0vered before, what have i met in the past, and it's driving me into mourning b0arding atm0sphere! it's easy hurting anyone else's heart, yet it was something that i did, some mistakes that are almost unf0rgivable, and c0rrectable. through these mistakes, i'm l0sing my maturity, integrity, and bravery as well as the desired strength, especially f0r enduring this hardships-filled life. i'm n0t saying that i'm gonna c0mmit suicide, i mean i'm still sane t0 think about the precious life that our G0d has best0wed us. but, it is about h0w i'm g0nna face these heart-br0ken people, when i emerge into the real w0rld? for sure there are no 0ther places for me t0 run, and hide. this shameful and fearful soul has n0 one else t0 supp0rt (maybe there are, and maybe they are n0t really int0 it), s0 wandering around by acting nothing has happened, what a helluva mask i'm gonna wear? yah, maybe i just can try t0 get back and h0ld what's fading, yet i really don't kn0w what else can i d0 besides these ultimate-striving ways, which require l0ts of energy, and supp0rt!

what can i d0? is there anyone out there wh0 is willing t0 help me with these matters? are these heart-broken people would be willingly f0rgive me and shatter the wall between us for a new sun?(thanks t0 celine dion), is there anyone wh0 wants t0 share the strength that his or her owns, t0 supp0rt me striving f0r a desired ending?

the answers would be unleashed by the future, n0 one else may guess accurately, but everyone is always 0pened f0r h0ping a vivid result. and i h0pe the pers0n is gonna be you...