perspective

i'm sorry if this post is a bit emotion-related. yeah, humans have feelings, it's just about the way they express them, whether in a good way. but this time, my emotion has been distracted by some ambiguous attitude, behavior, and thoughts of other people. i am totally messed up with this situation where i will tend to be sad, and depressed.

even though you might notice that i still can smile, but like i said before, it's different in the way humans express their feelings. for me, rather being a burden to friends, i suppose to give good impression that i'm ok, even though i'm hurt inside. you guys maybe say that i'm pretending and it hurts more, but if you want to know, i can't let my friends keep asking and demanding for the answers.

it hurts more if i tell you guys 1 by 1. let's put it this way, there's something that you don't know about me, and i believe these problems occur due to this matter. i need someone who is mentally and physically prepared to help me out, released and unleashed from sinking and drowning in the darkness. is there anyone willing to? (i guess no)