reviewing post

yeah, it has been quite sometimes since my last post. since today is the end of March 2009, it would be better if i summarize all events which have happened during this period. i'll split it out into different parts. feel free to read through until the end of this post.

academic performance:

there's nothing to be proud of as my studies are concerned. yeah, it's not that i was being such a lazy asshole to do homework, assignments or whatever assigned by the lecturers. let's talk about accounting test, which was not well-performed by me. i'm not saying that i have given up on this subject, it's just that the progress is getting harder, and the lessons are turning me into ultimate confusion. maybe it's not going to take so much time having second suicide case at casa subang. (hello, i didn't mention or imply anything that i'll be that person ok =P). besides, legal studies and english studies also do not went in the best way, but i'm still breathing and walking on the right path, and has yet to fail in both subjects concerned earlier. what about maths? ok, since this is my favourite subject, i'm not going to badmouth about it, even though i was not performing so well for it, but i'm improving! last subject, of course it would be economics. i remember my presentation for this subject, and actually it turned out to be quite a failure. but, i was relieved since my marks for this media analysis are not so low (a blessing in disguise =P). owh, talking about presentation, i instantaneously refresh back about my esl mock presentation. at least, this one would make me feel better since i performed it very well, and i can feel how confident i was while standing in front of the audience, especially dr santha which is a straight-to-the-point lecturer, and fortunately there were no negative comments form her and the rest, but time management was not so good though. overall, i'm satisfied with it. =)

social performance:

i noticed somethings have changed about myself. i'm not going to mention it. but i kinda of feelling guilty and quite dissapointed about something since i have a feeling which can't or will not be able to become a reality. but if it is something which i'm able to feel, and experience, i'm very grateful and pleasured. sometimes, i have an instinct that this thought is a true-story assumption. but what can i say, maybe it will not go on that way. yet, i'll be always hoping for it to become reality, and i hope that the time will come fast [;)].

that's all for this post, we'll see what will be coming up after this, in April 2009...

my 'siblings'...

okay, as you can see above, this is a video of my little 'siblings' at home, my cute kittens!(=P). just wanna keep my blog updated, and just wanna fill up my leisure time posting this. in fact, actually this video illustrates about different kinds of attitude of my kittens. try to watch it, and you'll obviously notice that...(:D)

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu...(bhg10)

ahad
15 mac 2009

kali ni, aku maju setapak dalam perjalanan aku untuk mendapatkan lesen. guess what? aku da lulus ujian pra! walaupun prestasi kurang menyerlah, tetap aku harapkan kemajuan pada masa akan datang. mungkin aku akan ambil ujian jpj semasa cuti bulan 6, the final one after striving hard to be a P-licensed competent driver. wish me luck!=P

ketandusan

aku lemas dalam ketandusan...

walau pelajar masih menjadi gelaran...

tetap tidak lekang dari pengabaian...

hatta bila aku ingin kekal sedemikian?

__________

bila kerajinan aku nak kembali?=P

presentation

yeah, holiday is almost finished, and i'm still pondering on how should i do my economics' presentation, investigative study's interview, and cpt for legal studies. thinking of homework while playing games is really making me feel guilty, since they are not completed yet. why is it hard to be hardworking during the holiday? for me, the spirit of studying is absent, and my soul seems like having an unpredictable dilemma, whether should i do the homework.

i hope it won't be too late for the 'hardworking spirit' to reappear before the sun shines in the morning on Monday.(=P)

kembali kepada koneksi

yeah, akhirnya aku mampu untuk online kembali, setelah membelanjakan hampir suku scholarship money aku.

memang agak banyak perbelanjaan tu, dari streamyx sampailah kepada komputer. ia jadi semakin berat since parents aku tak peruntukan 'pakej rangsangan ekonomi' untuk bil bulanan streamyx dan juga kelengkapan aku dirumah. reasons? sebab aku sahaja yang pakai dekat rumah aku. yelah, dah komputer aku.

kesimpulannya, hati aku ibarat bunga yang kembali mekar di pagi hari. rasa tak senang if tak online. bagi aku, internet ni ibarat nyawa kepentingannya.(=P)

analisa lensa...

tidak kisah aku merana seorang, aku rela pergi tanpa kembali pulang...

adakah itu yang kau mahu?

jawab aku...

kamu kenal siapa aku?

jujur, aku sendiri tidak mengenali diri aku...

kehendak dan kemahuan aku berbeza setiap masa...

kerenah aku kadangkala jauh dari yang biasa...

masih, aku tidak mengetahui apa sebenarnya yang ada pada diri aku...

dimensi ekspresi

emosi kurang stabil...

harap maaf sekiranya perilaku author mengjengkelkan kalian...

__________

benar, dia tak tipu...

__________

ah, pedulikan la...

bukan ada kena mengena dengan aku...

__________

kenapa?

ceritalah apa yang berlaku?

sekurang-kurangnya dapat ringankan beban tu...

__________

lantak dialah terbeban ke tak...

janji aku tak terlibat...

so, aku tak nak amik tau langsung...

__________

serius, kenapa ni?

jangan tahan, lepaskan...

kalau nak, nangis semahu-mahunya...

__________

takyahlah emo sangat...

semua orang ada masalah kot...

rileks sudah...

__________

takpe, seringan mana pun masalah tu...

aku tetap akan dengar...

__________

terima kasih, KAWAN...

rekod paling buruk!

siapa sangka...

gagal dalam ujian...

tanpa A, C dikumpul...

setakat ni rekod terburuk...

dan aku harap tak akan ada lagi keputusan seteruk tu...

apatah lagi lebih teruk...

tolonglah...

_______________

legal studies...

disebabkan kecuaian, aku gagal ujian tu...

*****

mathematical studies...

disebabkan kemalasan, pun aku gagal ujian tu...

*****

economics...

disebabkan kurang tumpuan, aku gagal ujian tu...

*****

accounting studies...

disebabkan kemalasan, aku gagal ujian tu...

*****

english as second language...

disebabkan kurang hormat, aku gagal ujian tu...

_______________

siapa sangka...

tanpa A, C dikumpul...

setakat ni rekod terburuk...

dan aku harap tak akan ada lagi keputusan seteruk tu...

apatah lagi lebih teruk...

tolonglah...

penyesalan atau kenyataan?

kadang2 aku rasa aku ni tak berguna...

betulke?

_______________

aku menyibuk masa orang tak perlukan aku...

aku buat tak tahu masa orang perlukan aku...

apa fungsi aku sebenarnya???

_______________

kadang2 aku rasa aku ni tak berguna...

betulke?

_______________

hidup perlu dihidupkan, tapi aku pemusnahnya...

kalau inginkan bahagia, entah bila aku akan jumpa...

apa maknanya?

_______________

agaknya memang betul...=(