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HAPPY AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN...

what a day 2...

yeah, today was quite interesting! surprisingly, i acted as if i haven't been told about what should i do for legal studies paper. guess what? i answered 2 questions for 10-mark essay which actually we are supposed to choose only 1 out of 5 questions. no wonder i was nervous about the time because it's not enough of course! and yet i have a 20-mark essay to be done, i spent so much time doing 1 more unecessary 10-mark essay question. honestly, i felt like crying when i realized that i had mistakenly read the instruction. but fortunately i could control myself and continue working on what should i be doing.

i cancelled the other 10-mark essay. and i know that was kinda wasting my time. with 6 short response questions, i felt really2 nervous. and my handwritting was a total mess! i don't know whether ms wendy could read but when i tried to do so, i can at least. luckily, i managed to complete answering all the questions, even though there were some blanks because i just can't understand the question! was it asking about function of passing a bill or function of the bill itself? sigh...

still, not enough with that. this fellow really annoyed me today and this person acted as if 'dia' so good and 'bajet bagus'! it's up to me la to do what in my vicinity or whatever that lies on my private area. don't simply say things that could hurt others if you just can't understand the other person better. 'dahla menyakitkan hati dulu2, hari ni kau buat lagi sakit hati aku. tolonglah!!!' i just can't stand it, and that's why i turned my speaker loud, so that i can relieve my anger.

hopefully tomorrow is a lucky, truely lucky day...

2nd day of trial...

i am sitting in the web, it's cold! but remembering that i didn't post anything yesterday, so that's why i am writing this post. even though yesterday was also quite a tiring day, going back by bus and yet standing, so damn unlucky! but it was kinda weird since i was smiling along the way back to casa. don't know why.

i got a call, for Jabatan Pendidikan Melaka. i wonder what's the purpose and the most important thing, how can they have my phone number? when i called my father, then i knew that they got it from my mother. but still asking myself, why eh? from what i have been acknowledged, they just wanna know where i am studying now, and surprisingly they also know that i'm gonna fly (insyaAllah) next year!

anyway, regarding yesterday's paper, ESL, it was quite fine, and no careless mistake was done, but still worried about the language though. i know dr santha is gonna kill me! at least i did it under a stress-free atmosphere, which means i did fine, i guess so.

right after this i have legal studies paper, and i am certain that i will reject any questions regarding family law, it's sickening! but at least i have studied even though by just taking a brief look at the notes. now, it's time to continue doing revision, before the exam starts!

what a day...

like what we study in economics, the business cycle will show a cyclical pattern. so does our lives. it would not be as happy as always. sometimes, we could be drowned in sadness, and disappointment, as what i have experienced today. i had never thought that it would turn out even worst! right after getting stressed with careless done for economics test, i went home late even though the exam ended at 10.10am and it was tiring! and i'm disappointed with someone for that even until now.

once i reached home, i straight away went to bed to refresh myself. but i just can't stand it, until i cried for 5 hours approximately! unconsciously, i woke up at almost 8pm! which means i broke fast late, and i was deadly hungry with having no 'sahur' this morning. i went down to 'kak su' for breaking fast. even worst the tension i got was not enough. i had waited for almost 1 hour there to have my meal served!

fortunately ESL will start at 11am tomorrow, which means tonight i can rest my mind from all those unnecessary tensions. even though my heart is broken now because of that someone, i should not forget to not breaking the hearts of my parents. i still have to excell in study, particularly in trial that i am having now. i hope tomorrow is a lucky and happy day...

i don't get it!

i write this post right after my first trial. not because i'm excited managed to answer all the questions, but i am disappointed. i just don't know how to express my feelings right now, sitting in the web seems opened for me to cry out loud. but what can i do is feeling hurt inside, holding my tears from coming out.

brain-drained!

okay, tomorrow is the first day for trial, with challenging subject, economics. now, i am working on my study plan, but it seems my brain has been drained by too much readings! my mind is always diverted to do something else, playing games particularly or watching some videos. it feels like overloaded with millions of words, and i am not certain whether i could vomit them tom0rrow.

of course i'm worried because i have not finished studying. 2 more chapters need to be covered before night comes because that's the only time for me to review all chapters at the same time. since tomorrow's test is gonna start at 7am, definitely i won't have much time to do last-minute checking of notes, with nerve-wrecking of entering the hall on the first day of trial, it really drives me crazy!

i wish i could do my very best, since this subject in trial is crucial for me to upgrade my internal marks. what can i do now is having a little rest before continuing to study, before my brain explodes and all words, facts, examples, definitions, scattered everywhere and got lost!

In Progress

yup, the study plan has started to function, quite effectively it seems. actually, i have just finished 2 chapters for legal studies by the time i write this post. tonight, i might be burning night candles, but only until 12 am is acceptable. if not, will feel sleepy tomorrow.

maybe i'll be finishing 2 more chapters and taking some times tomorrow during break to complete chapter 5. according to the study plan prepared, i should be studying mathematics and accounting studies tomorrow! and that's why i have to do so.

2 subjects that i am worried about; economics and mathematics. even though we have done trial or past year papers, it seems i have not studied, not anything at all but even i don't understand some workings which we should understand by now for mathematics particularly. and of course practices are not enough, but at this moment, we're expecting lecturers to give us some time to open the book and restudy, not get stuck with questions that are confusing our drained minds with coming trial next week and undone self-preparation.

i'm not saying that doing past year or trial papers is not helping, but the time of doing them is not suitable. i would prefer having them done 2 weeks before trial rather where we could have our own time to self-prepare on parts of the subject that you're not confident of if the questions ask. tomorrow is the last day meeting with lecturers before we struggle on our own starting next monday! i am indicating that i'm happy, not because i have confidence to seat for trial, but thinking of Hari Raya coming seems lessening the burden although for a moment...;D

study plan!

yeah, since the trial is coming, i have come up with a somewhat study plan, hopefully it will work and function...

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Wednesday, 9 Sept: Legal Studies (Chapter 1-3)

Thursday, 10 Sept: Legal Studies (Chapter 4-5)

Friday, 11 Sept: Mathematics + Accounting Studies

Saturday, 12 Sept: Economics (Chapter 1-5)

Sunday, 13 Sept: Economics (Chapter 6-8) + (Review)

Monday, 14 Sept: ESL

Tuesday, 15 Sept: Legal Studies (Review)

Wednesday, 16 Sept: Mathematics (Review) + Accounting Studies (Review)

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i know maybe it seems weird for me to post this study plan on this blog, but actually no that i wanna promote my cleverness or be egoistic, it's just that i want it to be an acknowledgment of my seriousness in making this plan working! i always check my blog, and with that i would be constantly reminded about what should i do in a few days after. of course it's important, it's trial guys! and it worth 10% for internal assessment! besides, this result of trial would be a benchmark of our stand, whether we're performing well or the other way around. therefore, wish me luck!

*suggestions are encouraged for better plan!:D

study time? nah..

i don't know what's on my mind because it seems i don't have any exams coming. guess what? it's trial next week and i'm still playing around, dota especially, nowadays. yeah, having a housemate who would play with you, i just can't say 'no' (LOL). i did plan to study today, and tom0rrow, but as i said before, holidays should not be distracted with studies, at all! i'm now somewhat relaxing my mind, before i struggle deadly for trials next weekend.

i know that the time is gonna be kinda late, but 1 of my friend says, under a circumstance that ordinary people would that think they are clumsy, but it's not actually. under that pressure, you're encouraged to study more, and it's quite efficient! rather than studying earlier taking hours to finish 1 page of thick notes. yeah, that is what i mean. studying earlier does not mean you're well-prepared earlier though.

about that unsolved problem, it has been almost a month! yeah, within this time i have enjoyed my life to the fullest, without getting bothered with insane people around! i regret about what have i done before, especially to my housemates. knowing the fact that we're housemates, i just can't ignore them at all! but that creep, befriending him seems furthering the gap between us. now i have a lot of time to spend with them. and i am grateful.

as time passes by, i know that i just can't keep my anger for a long time. even our beloved Prophet forgave his ummat, why not us? actually, i tried to confront him, but he is just still mad at me, and i don't know what else i should do. maybe one day his heart will be opened for forgiveness, who knows? 1 thing for sure, even though we have forgiven each other, the atmosphere won't be the same. i am now having my friends surrounding me, who don't differentiate me, and discriminate me either! they accept the way i am, and that's it! thank you guys!!^o^