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Friday, January 30, 2009

dilema menggoncang jiwa!

argh!!!


urgh!!!

argh!!!

*gelora jiwa aku yang cuba merajinkan diri, walaupun terikat erat oleh kemalasan yang semakin menguasai!

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nak buat  homework ke tak nak?

kalau aku buat, memang 'cincai' jadinya...

or tak akan terdetik langsung untuk buat...

kalau aku tak buat, aku tak akan ada masa lagi lepas ni...

memandangkan aku akan balik pada hari ahad malam ke Casa...

padahal aku sudah merancang untuk siapkan pada malam tu! 

dengan perjalanan yang memenatkan, for sure aku akan exhausted sesudah sampai...

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argh!!!

urgh!!!

argh!!!

*jiwa kembali meronta-ronta menagih kerajinan, "pulangkan!!!"...

p/s: tiada korban jiwa, atau kecederaan jiwa, hanya refleksi secara imaginasi tentang perihal author masa kini...:D



Thursday, January 29, 2009

akhirnya!

yeah2, hari ni sudah hari ke berapa, aku pun dah tak sure. yang pasti, hari ni bagaikan mentari yang kembali bersinar walaupun sekadar dibalik awan yang mendung! guess what


bukan nak bangga, walaupun memang tak boleh dibanggakan, aku bagi tahu jelah. tapi bagi aku, memang membanggakan since kemalasan aku semakin pudar. 

untuk annotated bibliography, finally i'm working on it! tak tahu macam mana boleh terdetik di benak minda aku yang sangat malas untuk bekerja buat masa sekarang. 

walaupun belum complete totally and still under 'construction', setidak-tidaknya aku da mula untuk kerjakan otak aku semula. bak kata zahid, kena avoid procrastination! (sebelum ni aku procrastinate apa?=P) 

kesimpulannya, semoga aku masih punya masa sebelum bermulanya hari per'kolej'an. tak nak kena denda dengan siapa2!...:D

*akibat kebosanan yang menghimpit jiwa,  recent post agak tidak menentu...

thought

sometimes, dreams reflect the reality...


not for us to hope, but to catch...


sometimes reality makes us dream...

not for us to grab, but to share...


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a sacrifice is sacred...

yet, it isn't meant to be proud of...



a sacrifice is also painful...

yet, it isn't meant to be regretted...

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happiness is undefined...

for it sometimes would make other to suffer...


happiness is predictable...

for it sometimes could be indicated...

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*from a dream, i was indicated to sacrifice for a happiness, though it hurts me...

*from a reality, i was able to share something to be proud of, though it hides my suffering...

"DO THESE REFLECT ME AS A BETTER PERSON???" 
 

 

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

it's painful to see...

i wish i can do something for their better future...

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"what should we do?"
"how would we do?"
"when could we start?"

whatever questions appear in your minds, this is the main thing to be answered...

ARE YOU WILLING TO???

*in response to war crimes in Gaza...

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu (bhg9)

28 januari 2009
rabu

baiklah, ni kali ke berapa aku drive pun aku da tak ingat, da banyak kali jugaklah. tapi, still can't be a competent driver yet. kali ni, aku drive mengikut laluan untuk test jpj, laluan A. agak ok pada mulanya, sampai satu tahap enjin kereta mati tengah2 jalan! dahla depan Jaya Jusco, tempat yang banyak kereta berbaris-baris. mesti diorang bengang, nak2 mereka2 yang berbaris dibelakang aku. haha, padan muka! anyway, aku da semakin yakin untuk ambil ujian jpj, and maybe aku akan ambil masa cuti bulan 3 nanti. harap2, boleh la pass. tapi, masih ada lagi benda yang aku perlu improve, especially bila nak balance minyak and clutch. untuk laluan bukit, parking, and tiga penjuru, aku da ok!!! jadi, wish me luck untuk sesi yang seterusnya...:D 

kebuntuan mencengkam jiwa!

orang kata, "hargailah apa yang kita miliki". 


tapi, bagaimana kita ingin mengetahui samada kita memilikinya atau tidak???

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

kemalasan menguasai aku!

baiklah, secara jujur, setelah bercuti selama 4 hari, aku masih belum sentuh homework yang perlu disiapkan...


-annotated bibliography(esl)
-cpt(legal)
-table of market structures(economics)
-journals(accounting)

serius, aku rasa sangat malas untuk siapkan! if bukak buku pun, belek2 aje, lepas tu tutup, and sambung ber-on9. haih2, boleh ke capai TER yang diingini kalau macam ni?

sekarang aku duduk kat rumah, sama macam aku ni seorang penganggur. tak yah risau pasal kerja, and schooling, or colleging.

sampai bila aku harus begini???


Thursday, January 22, 2009

aku tak bersuara, tapi...

apa yang kamu semua akan buat untuk 'segar' dalam kelas?

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semasa kelas dr santha, aku rasa agak mengantuk, dan aku siap boleh terlelap lagi! takpe2, aku cuba tahan, besarkan mata yang da sedia besar. selepas seketika, aku terlelap lagi! haih2, tak boleh jadi ni, mesti buat something supaya aku tak mengantuk. ok2, aku ada benda ni, lagipun aku rasa takde masalah if aku buat masa kelas dia. aku pun guna la benda tu.

sampai satu masa, bila dia datang ke belakang(seat aku) dan tunjuk sample referrence, aku pun tengoklah, sambil guna benda tu. until one moment, dia tanya,"what are you eating? your mouth looks like you are chewing something". aku pun cakaplah, chewing gum. kau orang tau apa dia bilang? "it's not a good habit". huh? ye ke? lecturer lain takde pulak cakap macam tu! siap ada lagi yang encourage buat benda tu. yelah, kalau da tak tahan, aku buatlah. nanti if aku tidur dalam kelas, lagilah kena marah! apakah moralnya disini???

*jangan kunyah gam kunyah, sebab kena kunyah sentiasa sampailah kau orang buang
*makan gula-gula yang solid, atau pun yang macam fruitplus, kunyah and then swallow
*yang penting, pandai2 la kau orang cover...:D

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

aku bersuara, tapi...

sambungan dari post yang lalu. walaupun orang da biasa dengar suara aku yang membuktikan bahawa aku ini adalah lelaki, tetap orang2 ini degil.

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storynya pendek aje. aku ada kelas esl with dr santha, dan aku pun da hantar proposal untuk research aku. selepas beberapa detik, dia menyebut nama seseorang, kononnya dan dengan yakin, " zayanal!". aik! sejak bila aku ada 2 nama ni?(sebab dia pandang aku) dan kenapa bunyi nama ni macam aku pernah dengar? "ouwh, sorry2. danial", katanya. aku pun tak nak la panjang2kan cerita dengan mentor aku tu, even dia tak sepatutnya lupa nama aku. since aku adalah pembantu wakil kelas, tak kan senang2 boleh terlupa nama aku? takpe2, dimaafkan.

sebab apa dimaafkan?

event ni berlaku kat luar perkarangan Taylor's. kira2 kat depan Taylor's la. on the way melintasi jalan raya, aku dengar someone panggil nama aku. terkejut! siapa la yang teriak nama aku kuat2 dekat tempat ramai orang ni? aku pun toleh ke belakang, and aku pun nampak dia! laa, dr santha rupanya. that's all.(yang lain tak penting)

*kepada zayana, ia hanya kesilapan teknikal sahaja...
*kepada dyana, jangan salahkan ku jikalau kamu berasa terpanggil pada masa itu(dalam kelas)...:D

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

kalau aku tak bersuara...

kadang2 aku rasa pelik. entah macam mana boleh jadi macam ni. aku tak kisah, sebab benda ni tak selalu berlaku. takpe, ak bagi can. tapi, bila teringat balik, haih2! memang nak kena! rasa nak jerit aje, "what the hell???".
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selepas makan tengahari, selepas perut sudah diisi, aku dengan kawan2 pun balik ke kolej. alamak! tak photostate lagi nota esl! nak kena dengan doktor santha? taknak2. so, aku pun singgah la dekat kedai depan taylor's tu(tak ingat kedai apa:D). kawan2 aku tunggu kat depan, aku lak masuk dalam nak photostate. nampak ada pembantu kedai tu, aku pun tunggu la dekat kaunter. bagus2, dia busy, kerja berhemah. aku pun sabar menunggu. akhirnya sampai turn aku untuk photostate. aku da siap hulur nota kat dia, sambil suara dia yang amat merdu menyapa, "yes, can i help u, miss?".

kjhdcniushdcoiwjhcdkjnws!!!

entah kenapa suara aku lambat keluar beberapa saat, untuk menunjukan bahawa aku ini adalah seorang lelaki! tergamam, tak terkata. mak cik tu pulak, boleh tersengeh-sengeh. ek eh, melampau lak. takpe2, nasib baik dia betul2 pekerja yang berhemah, dia minta maaf. takpe, maafmu diterima, sampai kau habiskan photostate nota esl aku tu!!! grrr...

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itulah ceritanya. bukan apa, saja nak kongsi2 story. lagipun, kejadian sebenar yang berlaku kat aku ni patut dijadikan tauladan...

*jadi pelanggan yang sabar
*jadi pekerja yang berhemah
*jadi pekerja yang boleh bergurau(konon)
*
jadi pelanggan yang lebih2 sabar
*yang penting, aku takkan potong rambut aku sampai pendek!!!:D

Monday, January 19, 2009

99th post!

yeah, this is the 99th post of my blog since my participation which started last year. i'm really kinda of feeling excited, maybe because i have relatively posted some of my thoughts, and perceptions on this blog.

but right now, it's my time to unravel 1 of the mistakes, a big 1 which i did during my life as a student in SBPI Selandar, specifically when i was a leader of my Malay debate club on that time. i remembered this once i have a seat in the bus early in the morning.

being the 1 and only guy in my school's Malay debate team, of course was pressuring me up, since i had to take so much responsibilities in ensuring the club to run and work smoothly. i was quite enjoyed being a debater, and i still wish that Taylor's has a Malay debate club. everything went smoothly until 1 moment, where we have to practice as usual since the participation was around the corner.

i was quite eager to win that match, yet something went wrong. i admit that it was my mistake, for being a bad leader. i realized that all of my fellow debaters were quite busy with their homework and assignments. yet, i forced them to practice, because we were targeting a high achievement for this competition. consequently, we had a quarrel and i was immature to say this," susahlah aku jadi ketua ni, membebankan!!!...".

it's up to all of you to evaluate me. everyone has his or her own opinion. honestly, i was crying after we dismissed. it was such a regretful moment i had as if it reflected the real part of myself.

yeah, maybe i'm not born to be a leader, yet i'm not going to give up, since i have a chance, still to appear on the eyes of the public, specifically my classmates, since i am an assistant of the class representative. i hope these few days would remind me lots of mistakes which i had done in my past, so that i'll become a new person as 21 January 2009 passes...:D

Sunday, January 18, 2009

sToRy oF uS...

There were rumours that friendship do not last,
and many believed, including myself in my past,
As i dug deep into my mind i found a story of a friend and i,
memories; sweet and strong, solidify as i remember the isolated isle...

My first few steps made him the person i first met,
it was chemistry but annoyance was what we had,
and on a lonely season we got into a vicious fight,
that lasted long until the end of night...

his old man was the one who broke us apart,
without expecting that then our frenship took its start,
and from there onwards we were always together,
never apart as our connection grew stronger...

he was the person i would search for first,
whenever i was in desperate thirst,
not for my throat but for his calm and warm words,
tying my trust and his in sealed intertwined knots..

Around him the air seems light as my worries rest,
and in that atmosphere i felt extraordinary at its best,
with his grins, laughter and silly jokes filling my ears,
i was a fairy tale princess who knew no sad tears...

We shared everything from A to Z with each other,
building powerful and invincible trust for one another,
however, that was years ago and time had surely pass,
yet my mind ponder of his presence as if it is a total must...

And fate brought us, 2separate souls together again,
as our eyes met,tears fell alongside the meaningful rain,
so now i know that i had place my believe wrongly,
for FRIENDSHIPS do last for eternality...

*credit to "dNAvOicEs"

loaded!

i have told u before that this semester is going to be a tough one. of course, i was expecting an 8-hours-schedule of studying time, and loads of homework and assignments. yet, starting classes at 8 am everyday is not what we called efficient! i can feel now how tired i am since i have been staying only in my room for the whole weekend! specifically, this weekend.

besides taking enough rest, i am also searching and researching in fulfilling the needs of my internal! let me list down some of them which are worrying me deadly!

-investigative study (esl)

*globalization: does it assist the social progress?

-civil participation task (legal studies)

*should young offenders be given equal treatment as adult offenders?

yeah, fortunately i passed both LAN subjects, specifically Islamic studies and Malaysian studies, where i scored A's for both. nothing to be bent out of shape since i'm not required to repeat those quite painful subjects! hello, i had been studying them for a long time before, i'm not eager to re-study those back!

ok, back to the main topic here, this new sem is quite terrifying, of course due to some tests which are gonna be included into internal assessment! i'm quite worried about accounting test tomorr0w even though the questions are asking about the theoritical part. yet, i'll try my best, h0pefully i could since i have not studied anything so far!

whatever happens, i h0pe i can encounter them, although i realize that i'm not so strong as if i don't have to worry about what is going on or will be going on.

wish me luck, and i'll owe all of you a l0t!...:D

Saturday, January 17, 2009

fortunate ending...

sigh...

it's driving me crazy thinking about this problem...

i'm to0 conservative until almost not fixing something which should not be that way...

yet, thanks to someone for the desired advice...

which brings about the desired ending of the matter...

thanks, miss rayhan...:D

oh my God!!!

i'm doing a mistake...

a mistake which is hard to be corrected...

a mistake which is hurtful for someone...

a mistake which is making me an irresponsible...

a mistake which is realized in the middle of a trial...

a mistake which is supposed to be stop before it gets deeper...

yet, it would create another mistake in the correcting of that mistake...

WHAT SHOULD I DO???:(

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

from someone special...

You takeaway my fears,
And wipe away my tears,
You make me happy when I'm sad,
You make the world seem not so bad,
You make me think,
You help me to try,
You make me wonder,
You make me laugh,
You make my life better,
It's as simple as that.

credit to yusra...:)

Monday, January 12, 2009

ISRAEL SEMAKIN BUAS!!!

Israel makin buas

PENDUDUK Palestin mengutip cebisan al-Quran yang musnah selepas Masjid al-Fadilah di Rafah dibom dalam serangan udara tentera Israel, semalam. - Foto Reuters

Pasukan perubatan jumpa mayat mangsa dimamah tikus, anjing

BANDARAYA GAZA: Tentera Zionis terus mengganas dengan pertempuran sengit berlaku antara tentera rejim itu dan pejuang Hamas di pinggir bandar raya ini semalam, ketika pasukan infantri Israel semakin hampir ke kawasan paling ramai penduduk.
Sementara itu, anggota perubatan Palestin yang sering terlewat menuju lokasi serangan berikutan bedilan yang berterusan, melaporkan dalam beberapa kes mayat mangsa yang ditemui didapati sudah dimamah tikus dan anjing.

Pesawat tempur Israel terus melancarkan serangan bom di sepanjang sempadan Mesir dan Gaza semalam, berhampiran bandar Rafah menyebabkan tingkap terminal imigresen pecah.

Saksi berkata, tentera Israel melepaskan bom fosforus di Khouza, sebuah perkampungan berhampiran sempadan, mengakibatkan sederet rumah terbakar.

Pegawai hospital, Dr Yusuf Abu Rish berkata seorang wanita terbunuh, manakala 100 lagi cedera kebanyakannya akibat terbakar dan terhidu gas bom terbabit.

Pertempuran yang masuk hari ke-16 itu setakat ini sudah mengorbankan lebih 875 orang, ketika Mesir meneruskan usaha mencari jalan penyelesaian di wilayah itu.

Saksi Palestin berkata, pertempuran di kejiranan Sheikh Ajleen bermula sebelum subuh dan berlarutan sehingga pagi, apabila angkatan darat Israel bersama kereta kebal mara ke arah Bandaraya Gaza yang mempunyai 400,000 penduduk.

Pejuang Hamas dan kumpulan lebih kecil, Jihad Islam, berkata mereka menyerang hendap askar Israel dan mengesahkan pertempuran adalah paling sengit sejak rejim Zionis menghantar angkatan daratnya ke wilayah di pesisir pantai itu, 3 Januari lalu.

Pegawai perubatan Palestin berkata, sekurang-kurangnya 14 orang dari kejiranan Sheikh Ajleen terbunuh, tetapi sama ada mereka pejuang Hamas atau penduduk awam belum diketahui setakat ini.

Tentera Israel mula dilihat di jalan utama kejiranan itu dan di sebuah kebun serta padang berhampiran sebelum subuh.

"Kami selamat tetapi kami tidak tahu untuk berapa lama," kata Khamis Alawi, 44, yang dikelilingi isteri dan enam anaknya, sambil menambah peluru daripada pertempuran itu mengenai dinding dan tingkap rumahnya.

Pejuang Hamas melancarkan siri serangan roket ke bandar Beersheba di Israel, tetapi tiada kemalangan jiwa dilaporkan.

Dalam pada itu, anggota perubatan Palestin berkata mereka turut menghadapi ancaman ketika cuba menyelamatkan mangsa serangan, malah ada yang terkorban dan tercedera ketika cuba menyelamatkan orang lain.

Anggota perubatan itu yang menjangkau seramai 400 orang termasuk anggota sukarela, bekerja untuk tempoh yang lama tanpa mendapat waktu tidur secukupnya.

Ramai sudah pun kehilangan kawan dan anggota keluarga, tetapi beban kerja yang banyak menyebabkan mereka tidak mempunyai masa memikirkan apa yang dilihat dalam kejadian itu.

Menurut anggota perubatan, penyelarasan yang terpaksa dilakukan dengan pihak Israel sering menyebabkan mereka terlewat sampai kepada mangsa yang tercedera. Sesetengah laporan menyatakan mereka menemui orang yang terkandas di rumah selama beberapa hari atau mayat bergelimpangan di jalan raya tanpa dipedulikan.

"Jijik bukan perkataan yang patut digunakan," kata Shawki Saleh, 24, seorang anggota sukarela perubatan di hospital Kamal Adwan.

"Jika bukan anjing, tikus dilihat menghurung mayat...Saya sudah terbabit dalam kerja sukarela ini selama dua tahun, tetapi tidak pernah terfikir akan melihat keadaan seperti ini.

"Siapa tahu berapa ramai orang masih tertimbus di bawah kesan runtuhan itu? Kami sendiri pun menjerit ketika membawa mereka keluar."

Seorang lagi anggota perubatan, Haitham Adgheir berkata pada satu ketika dia mengusung lima mayat, melihat enam lagi di Hospital Gaza dan pasukan perubatannya diserang oleh kereta kebal Israel, mengakibatkan pemandunya dihujani serpihan kaca.

"Otak saya seperti video yang boleh memainkan gambar bahagian tubuh badan manusia dan mangsa yang tercedera," kata Adgheir, 33.
Sejak pertempuran bermula, 21 kakitangan perubatan Palestin terkorban, 30 cedera dan 11 ambulans musnah, menurut Pertubuhan Kesihatan Dunia.

Jawatankuasa Antarabangsa Persatuan Palang Merah minggu ini mengecam Israel secara terbuka dan menyatakan mereka menyebabkan kelewatan "yang tidak boleh diterima" bagi membolehkan anggota penyelamat sampai memberi bantuan kepada mangsa tercedera. Kakitangan di Gaza juga berkata askar Israel kadangkala turut menembak krew ambulans. - AP

boikot ISRAEL!!!

dibawah ini disertakan senarai jenama yang menjadi penyumbang kewangan kepada ketenteraan ISRAEL untuk membunuh saudara muslim dan muslimat kita.

coca cola
huggies
river island
mc donalds
clinique
disney
donna karan
starbucks
gap
garnier
perrier
kotex
sanex
jo malone
lancome
libbys
tchibo
loreal
marks & spencer
kleenex
maybelline
nestle
vittel
revlon
wonderbra

seperti kata presiden kelab model united nation, kolej universiti taylor's, bumi palestin sekarang hanya seluas 1/10 dari keluasan yang asal. mahu atau tidak kita membantu sedikit sebanyak, terpulang kepada anda. apa yang saya harapkan, agar kita semua dapat menghentikan pembelian barang2 berjenama tersebut diatas.

sama-sama kita bersatu, zahirkan protes anda terhadap kekejaman yang berlaku dinegara saudara muslim kita, angkara ISRAEL durjana!!!...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

hari pertama sempena semester baru...

sempena hari pertama, semangat untuk belajar memang kental.

boleh dikatakan, lautan api pun sanggup diredah semata-mata inginkan ilmu yang meluas.

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agak awal naik bas pagi ni, sebab tempat duduk still byk yg kosong.
bkn nk riak, tapi terkilan gak sebab xdpt tid0 lebih lame...:D

sampai kat kolej, terus cari port, lepak dgn kwn2. breakfirst? xpelah, ak on diet...:D

masuk klas, over and over again bnde yang sme. sumenye psl scheme of work 4 dis sem. ade gak belajar dan diajar, tp apply smart TAG je. ala, touch and go...:D

abis klas pkl 2 ptg, mmg xcited sbb dpt balik awl. yet, tunggu bas, n tunggu, dan tunggu, xsmpi2 jugak. mmg berlambak bas kat keliling kolej, mcm ade showcase je.tp syg, sumenye bkn bas yg
dinantikan. bt tension je...:D

finally, dpt la naik bas, after menunggu hampir tige jam. sigh, lg menaikkan ke'tension'an ak, ble naik bas yg pdt gile. bak kate pepatah, mcm tin sardin...:D

dlm 'ketuhar bergerak' tu, borak2 la psl plan ke summit. konon nk tgk enset, n karaoke. tp, blum lg smpi casa, da hjn. of coz plan yg planned awl2 tuh terbatal...:D

*selepas semua kejadian itu, ak rs letih sgt ptg ni. da byk gne tenage dlm bas kot. mne xnye, smbil diri pun bleh 'exercise'. xpe2, ari ni turn ak, esok lusa turn korg lak...:D

*otak tgh lalok, entry kurang kualiti...sorry...

Monday, January 5, 2009

decided decision...

i'm going to go with the flow...

not force myself...

but not give up either...


the time will come...


Sunday, January 4, 2009

the RETURN to casa...

finally, i arrived at casa. i have to get myself prepared for this c0ming sem f0r this sem is going to be a tough one. yeah, wh0 knows what might happen in the future, so we as humankind just can have ourselves prepared, n ready for the unpredictable battles and challenges. that's all for this post, since i don't have any idea and mo0d i guess to write m0re of recent events. just wait f0r next p0sts for more interesting t0pics t0 be shared. h0pefully, by starting this new sem, it w0uld be a great 0pportunity to get myself on the right track, before facing the finals...:D

Friday, January 2, 2009

perjalanan mendapatkan lesen memandu (bhg8)

khamis

1 januari 2009

ari nih, ak blaja parking, n 0f coz kne apply reverse straight away. everything went sm0othly, n i hv impr0ved in driving! maybe it's a glimpse of luck f0r this new year. n f0r da fes tyme, ak drive keta smpi umah, which is ab0ut 3okm-distanced way. f0rtunately, i arrived at h0me safely, n still alive. that's da last sessi0n f0r driving class, since i'm g0nna get back t0 c0llege so0n! h0pefully, by this mid year, i'm able t0 turn myself int0 P-licensed c0mpetent driver! wish me luck!...:D 

Thursday, January 1, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR!


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